Living Hell

Elevation

Venting

Feel it in my heart a pain coming 

Cause love returned and now its lost strains forming

From the tension 

In all your sweet deliveryWhy didnt you mention 

That the chivalry was temporary 

Until I helped you 

I took you in, told me you would hold me til the end

Let you around my family and then the end already begins

You treated me like a sucka 

cant find your child or his mother 

So I positioned you as my children's father to fill your void 

and then the first chance you get you playing the role of a  little boy 

"Gimme this and I want that ..Im hungry ..Im sick"

Throwing fits cause I wont suck your d***

You told me that you changed and things would be better 

I was such a fool for you , left the love of my life for you 

Thinking I would ride &n...

Failure

After all my pain 

After all the tears Ive shed

The rain still sustains

What gives

Am I being punished

Hard to be ok if I can never live

Existence of an unhappy soul

No good day 

My past mistakes still hender my goals

Staying positive why with all the negative results

Trying to pray 

Feeling worthless cause my 

consistent faults is just an insult

Can never indulge in enjoyment

Every moment is filled with disappointment

SAD DECEMBER

No simple reminiscence 

Good old days drifted in the distance 

 and Now I spend time trying to remember 

For the sake of sad decembers

May I just replace this lonely mind 

with pictures of splendor 

Heavy raindrops like fall no kinder

Makes me want to dissemble 

No riddle

My Lane

Somethings never change 

Ever spinning moon and rain

Nothing I can do to change it

3 dimentional I stand tall

Cant help the way the wolrd wish I would fall

No simple me

No room for petty grief 

Misery bound, HATE that it goes around

Bullets steady with no name

Stand still and thats your frame

Stay pushing in my own lane

Always and Forever

In the music, I feel you 

Cant get over our timeless love 

Unless Im wrapped in your warmth 

Nights just dont seem snug enough

I lose myself in you 

NObody else matters in your comparison

Ide rather die with you than without your love

"My body all weak" kind of breaking down

Its Jodeci everytime you come around

Tonights the night like evryone we have 

As long as Im alive there is no part of me you cant have

Forever yours, Always MIne 

Always and Forever until the end of time

On my way to you

Dont need that energy

I just need your love inside of me 

Go away hurts about the past 

Lets just make future moments last 

They all worried about the wrong thing

They dont understand and they dont see

The bond that holds you and me 

This time I choose

Big decisions

This time my heart I follow 

LISTEN

Non premenitions, Not about precision

Just us against them 

Heavy weight champ at it again 

So let the fight for true love begin

#Inspirational High

Look me straight in my eyes 

Cant look you straight in your eyes

The way you feel when you blushing, Soft-Sexy-Cool

Easy feelings no attitudes

Nice to know youre in the mood

Its sensational when you want me too

Keep it regular, but enticing

Touch me here in there, let me fight it

Heart thumping , wanna know your kiss 

go slow before you bite my lip

Pxssy throb me, when you get behind me and grab my hips

Keep me there nice and warm 

Release me and relax me your arms 

I lean back and you're there head to your chest 

Almost like you know me best and you are mine

The beginning of a feeling I could stand for a long time

Just like the rhythm in the vibes when we make love

Its passionate I want passion

No lesser truth you provide

Come all out, ride and enjoy the rise

With me your speciality 

Repetition

Round and Round my repetitions carry pounds and pounds of weight on everyone who trys to sound on me.

All my ignorant negativity that braces the positivity I NEED. Why its my own breakthrough I dont see?

Oh stubborn me, "I dont need nobody, dont nobody need me, " I say.

Deaf to the beatings on my door. Passion and Hope want in, they pray.

That I'll come around to myself knowing freedom and joy one day.

For now, my repetition delays my benediction of woe and lonliness and oblivion

Oh me, snap out of my cycle thats trapping out my vitality. Round and around, not having heard a sound of love, joy or peace.

The Beast

Look into my eyes and tell me what you see?

Can you see the reason I never go to sleep? Do you see the Beast?

I need someone to help set me free. Save me please. This beast is the reason I cant live in peace. Its hurting me. And its making me hurt everyone around me. Its destroying my insides. And its making me destroy everything that surrounds me.

Its trapped inside me and it doesnt wanna leave. Its a cold hearted beast and  its making me freeze. Its a killinng machine, and it needs to be seized.

It makes my soul feel like a drug and it is the fiend. I want to be an angel but Im carrying black wings. Listen and listen hard, I need you too hear my screams. Im burning and for my life I need to breathe.

Im tired of living this nightmare. Where are my dreams? Im trapped in a smalll box and I need someone to hand me the key. Im not the type that begs but Im on my knees.

Im praying that someone's heart is sweet....