Her Last Words

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 Dear mom i prayed that you make it out alive.
Cause without you my childhood would just died.
Your my heart, my soul, my everything, my lifeline.
As time flys by i pray that you make it on time.
Maybe im just a nine year old kid hoping to see his mom.
Hoping and praying that she is not gone.
Body shaking, heart pounding as i walk to mommy room.
Just thinking of the words i want to say to her.
Pain is not even the word, just scared not even close.
That the feeling that this pain could take away the person
That loves me the most.

Mom, this is ur second oldest son talking.
I hope this is not the last time we met.
I just wanna say that i love you, not only as a son.
Not only as a friend, but a mentor.
And for that i just say that your the person i adore.
Your the person that i admire.
Unlike the man u marry for all his life he became a lier.
But you was there for me when no one else was.
You where there to tuck me in at nite.
Your where there to cure my sickness.
For every advice you gave me, i appricate it.
For making me for who i am 2day i honor you.

I remember you told me i love you 2.
You told me that i need to be the man of the house.
Well i did that, but your time was due.
You have a sister that loves you.
My time on this earth is up, God is calling me.
And when i heard that i really couldnt speak.
Thats when i heard her last words.
Yep her last goodbye.
My mom in my arm, she peacefully died.
Me, i loudly just went off and cried.

Dear Mom eleven yrs later, all grown up.
Still miss you, still here breathing.
I wanna tell you how things been going.
Since you been gone, you have 4 Nieces.
Oh by the way the are beautiful and 1 has your eyes.
2 Nephews that could light up the room with a smile.
Your daughter is fine, she in a happy relationship.
Oldest son is doing him trying to make it.
Youngest son got all the girls around him.
As for your Hubby well f*** him cause he ditch on dem.
And your truly well almost out of community college.
And that truly a blessing, and when i think of you.
I feel like you in my presevent.

Every Birthday, every mothers day, every death anniversity.
I visit your grave and i think about what if.
What if i bring you back to me.
Maybe i can't bring you back to life.
Just know this you will always be on my mind.