I needed you, where were you? You said that you would never ever leave me...
I'm pathetic, I can't function without you.... It's like my heart jumped outta my chest, and now it just roams free.
You lied, I hate you! You said you would never ever make me cry...
It scares me kuz I loved you more than I loved me, and now I don't give a *** whether I live or die, kuz I'm dying inside...
I might as well be deceased, kuz everything is numb now that's inside of me. I never wanted to be the type to give up on love kuz it's oh such a beautiful thing... But loved betrayed me over and over again and it hurts worse than any physical pain could ever bring...
Please someone help me, I don't wanna lose myself to love but I'm scared to be all alone... With me, myself, and I, and whatever drugs that I can get high off of in my home...
I don't wanna relapse, I 've come such a long way from these demons, but I don't know how to deal with all these emotions...This is a cry for help, I'm not just trying to start a commotion.
If I vanish, and I'm never heard from again, make sure you tell the people how this all began..
My heart got ripped outta my chest, it got snatched from between my legs, then love and a bullet of hot lead went racing through my head..
Don't drag me to hell! Please! I've suffered enough hell here on earth. I pray to the almighty that he'll take my soul, kuz I've been his child since the moment of my birth.
I never thought love and a bullet would be my demise, .380 ed back and tears dripping from my eyes.....
Then I jump and wake up from this nightmare that troubles me every night while I'm in my bed.
I'm so scorned from and afraid of this thing called love, it got me all ***ed up in the head.
I thought I was dead.
Goddess Bee
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