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You gave me life & raised me to the best of your ability
Life must have been hard living in this small town A beautiful, strong opinionated, pot smoking, smart mouth, sassy little woman that you are
So off to the city you packed me and left
The town, your family, even two of your babies
The years rolled on
Hard times and good times combined
No matter the issue you held strong and carried on
You always worked and showed me a woman can stand on her own
You came back to your small town and nursed your sick mother not your siblings nor friends you carried this burden alone
The years pass and you made a life, you worked and did as much good as you did dirt
And your baby girl now a grown, hardheaded know it all teen
You did not know how to deal
How to dig deep to figure out what was hurting me and never seen my actions as a cry for help
So you let me go and I willing ran to the streets
I didn't have your support you always seen the worse
Our relationship fractured
We could not talk or relate
But a blessing from God I was blessed with a baby girl
With her birth we became friends and learned to appreciate each other’s faults and pain
With her birth you felt redeemed for forcing me to abort my first
With her birth I was able to forgive the loss of my son
I forgive you taking him and giving me no guidance or love through that process
One I’ll ask you if you have the ultrasound you took from my room, I’ll ask if you think of your first grandchild the way I do
Now one of my best friend
I can’t imagine life without you
Without the love, advice, support, and guidance even the smartcomments
You have become a mother to lost and abused kids
You’ve added love and joy the siblings are a source of love and pride in my life
So thankful for you for learning to love and not resent me
Thank you for loving me… finally showing me
I've forgiven your mistakes when raising me
I only wish you could see all of me
be proud my accomplishments and see how I learned from my mistakes
I think you look at me and see your failures
But you can
be happy and proud I've raised my daughter with the voice my mother never gave me, be proud your treatment didn’t break me
I promised to be better and learn from your mistakes so instead of beating you down
I'll Thank you for working so hard to become a wonderful irreplaceable mother to me I’ll not say nasty things I’ll say thank you for trying to be a better mother and grandmother then you were to me I’ll say thank you, because your hard, cruel ways made me strong and showed me how I wanted to be a better mother and give my daughter love and positivity and all the things my mother never gave
