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This ni**a I thought was prefect for me

A friend first, one of my best, always there for me

When we both were ready, we committed to finally be together husband and wife planning a wedding 

The happiest I had ever been

Only a few weeks went past before his attitude changed

Looking through my phone he read messages, he accused me of giving random ni**as the same I have given him

He accused me of disrespecting my home, myself and him

I was offended that he seen me this way

My job isnt to show him who I am, he should know

I am who I am and I don’t have to prove that to anyone

If my pure loyalty, respect, and honesty isn’t appreciated

Letting him break me down to fit his opinion of me isn’t an option

Even if the words hurt, the opinion you have of me stings, the disrespect of  the woman I fought to be.

  You have to re...

Tease

Tease

I see the looks the stares 

Your hands almost shake with the desire to touch me 

I love the game 

The chance to tease 

The feeling I get knowing how much you hate that I tease and the harder you get thinking of me pleasing 

I oil my body wet and shiny 

I wet my lips waiting for you to come near

I call your name 

spread open wide

You call my name leaning closer to touch me 

I inch a little closer 

You stick that tongue out 

I move away 

You hate me now 

I love to tease 

I know you are waiting for me to please 

I lay you down take my tongue and swirl it around 

Give you a lic...

My Body

My beauty lies within my curves & each of my flaws.
So when you skinny girls see me, you may laugh and throw shade, but your man is giving me nothing but praise.  wondering why you spent so much money making that body “the perfect shape “
And I’m so comfortable in my beautiful natural shape...

Big Brother

Big brother are you resting in peace?

I hate when someone says your death was meant to be.

*** peace I want you here with me.

*** the mourners that cried , posted and moved on.

No relief for me, I see no peace....I need my big brother here with me.

*** y’all telling me to let the tears go, I still don’t understand how y’all can let my brothers suspicious death go. 

Leave me alone and let me be. 

Please understand I’m not mourning I’m empty without my brother beside me. 

No speech no eulogy nothing will ever comfort me. 

Not until I’m next to my brother again 

Not until the loneliest the emptiness without him is filled...

The devil had his way

He walked in a daze most of his life

Drugging up

Partying

He believed he was living the life

Growing older

The streets beat him down

No one sees him as the good time player

Just a drugged out clown

His life is no longer his own

It belongs to the drug dealer he owes

The man lets him know he can clear his tab and get a bag of snow

Just give him one thing

The only thing he owns

The last thing he has to sale

He looks at the dealer with crazy wild eyes

But he drops his head

Knowing him saying he won’t do it is a lie

He will sale his manhood

It’s up for grabs

The dealer sales the man’s body

Gives him more drugs then he ever had

After months maybe years

He no longer cares about time

His body is done

Sick of the abuse

Gives up

The man is dying

Black Woman

The fire in me drives me

Pushes me

Molds me

I am the definition of strength

Looking at me you may not see

But I am the one

The one with strength and stability

I can give you hope

I have the light

The light that brightens the path to truth and love

I have the strength the power to overcome

I have it in me to make you believe

To give you your respect and show you what not to accept

I have it in me to help you be free

I can show you a different way

I can empower you as I am

I can show you how to love you

I will feed your soul

Give your mind an overhaul

Show you how to give everything you do your all

You may not know me you may doubt me

If you do

You have no idea how strong and influential a black woman can be

I want you all...

Her Life

This girl was born in small rural town

Her life was hard before her feet first touched solid ground

Druggies for parents no one there to protect

She grew up lonely

She grew up not knowing

She never knew trust

She never knew love

She only knew lies

She only knew judgment and drugs and hard life

She hated her life she hated herself

She became a teen and only knew how to give one part of herself

She gave her body to anyone who asked

She let lust fill her needs never giving a damn

She thought sex would ease the pain

She thought love she would gain

She only gained more self-hate and pain

With no one to guide her she fell deeper and deeper

The little girl now a woman lost in the system

Three children by fathers unknown

She walks the streets a zombie

Alone

She attempted to raise h...

Hood Girl

I am that hood girl

I will fight thatand curse that a*s

 I am that hood girl
The one you hear about all over town

Yes I have long fake nails the color of the sun they stay junked up

Yes my weave is to my a*s
The color of red kool-aid stained on a ghetto baby’s tank

Yes I am that hood girl that kicks it with more boys than girls
Yes I am that hood girl with a mouth from the south with all the nasty ghetto girl words

Yes I am
I am that hood girl

I say N**ga every other word

I pop my gum and wear my skinny jeans and J's daily

I need a blunt and I want to ride with my N**gas and watch them stunt

Yes I am that hood girl that will hold that bag

I am that hood girl that got your back

I am that hood girl that gives zero f**cks

I am that hood girl

Hold on I gotta roll my blunt......

If

If I say I hate you

You say you want to be my friend

What If I do hate you?

What if I even hate your smile, your style just the fact you walked in?

You say because I don’t like you

I am disrespectful & mean

It’s disrespectful for your face and voice to invade my mental

If it wasn’t for prison I would most likely cut you

Get away from me and find your own way

Family or friend

Does not matter to me

 I just might hate your face

I might hate when you’re smiling 

When you feel joy

I want to spit in your face

I might be crazy

But honey you are too

Especially since you’re talking that mess

Knowing how I feel

Good Girl

Good Girl?

What the hell does that mean?

The woman that cooks, cleans and takes care of all her man’s needs?

Good Girl?

Is that me?

I go above and beyond to ensure my man is pleased

Yes I mess up

Mistakes will be made

But I am a Good Girl at heart

I make up for most of the trouble I make

I have been a ho, and ran the streets

As I grew older

Stripping, getting foolish men for money, drugging

Held no more worth to me

I wanted security and loyalty

I wanted to give all I was given

I forgave wrongs done to be

But when my time comes no one can forgive me?

Good Girl?

What does that mean?

I feel like saying "F" being a Good Girl and just do me

Why sit up and struggle to let the good...