Trying to forget

Can't find love Pt.2 She found love

He became her everyday "Superman". After everythiing that she had endured after her first heartbreak he stepped up and took his place as her man. In the beginning when she was lonesome and in need of a friend. "Superman" flew in and promised her that with her the rest of his life he would spend. He is more than just her "Superman" he is the answer to her prayers. They show each other how much they love each other and how much they both care. 

God has given her so much more than just a second chance at love. God sent her the man that he sent her from above. Their love grows stronger as they keep God first and pray, pray, pray. God is the almighty, powerful one who will lead and guide their healthy relationship all the way. 

Can't find love

She loves him I think just a little too much. Now she begins to wonder was it really love, or was it just lust? She was so eager to fall in love so quick to say "I trust you". She said these words, but were they true?

Do you think she really knows what love is? Is it more than just a passionate kiss? She will wait for that one person to show her and help her understand what it means. Maybe true love was never meant to be. 

Broken

No one knew that daddy's baby girl had been through hell and back beginning at the age of nine. Crying silent tears that burned inside of her eyes. That night she was broken afterwards rolled over and went to sleep. Spoke no word of this, this was another one of those "painful secrets" she would always keep. On the outside she is smiling, but on the inside hysterically crying. Wanting to tell someone, anyone, but she is terrified, because she knows that they will say that she was lying. 

She waits in the darkness for mom to realize that something is wrong. Why does she feel weak when she has always been strong? 

Broken

No one knew that daddy's baby girl had been through hell and back beginning at the age of nine. Crying silent tears that burned inside of her eyes. That night she was broken afterwards rolled over and went to sleep. Spoke no word of this, this was another one of those "painful secrets" she would always keep. On the outside she is smiling, but on the inside hysterically crying. Wanting to tell someone, anyone, but she is terrified, because she knows that they will say that she was lying. 

She waits in the darkness for mom to realize that something is wrong. Why does she feel weak when she has always been strong? 

How well can you keep a secret?

Behind closed doors lie secrets that are ready to unfold. Secrets that only the strongest women can hold. Throughout life we have been asked can you keep a secret? This secret cuts through deeper than a slit on the wrist.

Picture this a white room with four empty walls. Those many nights her cries and pleads echoed off the walls. She would lay there helpless as she asked God why me? He, this man wiped his hands, but they were anything but clean. After so many years her silence still remains a mystery. 

Missing Piece

Words become emotions written on a piece of paper. She laughs about her pain now, but she cries later. She thinks that no one will ever love her now that she is broken. The most precious gift that girls try and hold on to well someone stole it. 

Feeling like an outsider became normal for her. Putting on a smile daily she is so used to people hurting her. Trusting people again was like this now growing brick wall. It will take something strongr than bulldozer to make it fall.

Grey skies  begin to surround her, and no one knows or understands what is wrong with her.

Trying to forget

She always wants tp pretend that those nights never happened, but they did. Why would you bring so mch pain and misery to a kid? Can't you see the scars, and how hard she tries to hide them? Those nights happened no matter how many times she chooses to deny them. 

Change

When I look around I can't help, but be harsh on myself about the things that I want to, but cannot change. Me, hoping, whishing, and praying that all things would some how shift, but they remain the same. When will things such as college tuition, and things like that, that are important be free? All of the evil that they blind us with so that we can't see. Why do you lie to my face, and then when I learn the truth it is you who goes astray?

It is time for us to wake up and realize what is really going on. Yes, it is time for us to distinguish right from wrong. Stay with me now, because I have something to say. Please get it together before it is too late. 

Never Her

Sometimes I wish that you could see me. Not as who you want me to be, but who I am. Listen to me closely when I say that I will never be that person again. There once was a time when I was easily influenced, and yes I gave in. It took a while, but after searchingI found the strength and the courage to win. 

Do you remember how lost and afraid I was? The sick fact that you took advantage of me just because. What exactly is it that you want from me? Some company, and eager listening ear, or  place where you can feel free. Please tell me that your nonsense makes more sense to you than it does to me.