hope Pt. I

ABSOLUTE

today I went to the red river for the first time since you left, I picked up a book today for the first time in more than a year not only I picked it up but I read more than just the title and got passed the first words. I then thought to myself I think I'm healing. slowly like a dark green algae but I think I see color beyond just the darkness that consumed me. but I felt for a long time this uneasy feeling of missing out. but I realized today I am meant(for the lack of a better word) to be on this path that I am. the endless, destination-less path. the path the creator is expiring through me. these days the words that keep waking me up at dawn and that lullaby into night are this is not my experience. this is a perfectly designed "life" and is never to be comprehended by the limited physical mind. by dissecting and by trying to fix or even design it the way I desire is useless because it could never satisfy my endless humane desire. my desire or rather million&nbs...

This is

Life is beautiful
But dear soul know it can be ugly
Life is a mirror
But it's also dirty
Life is wonder
But each step it gets oh so scary
Life is a dance
But it judges you silently 
Life is light
But the end has darkness
Life gives you a clue 
But sometimes you may end up blue
Life is enough
But it only reveals its half
Life is eternal
Life is maternal 
Life is love
Life is being alive
Life is this moment

allowed to breathe

The harm of mediocrity 

Keep following we

From city to city

Keeps measuring me

With everything I see

Gathering of identity

Is a no go for the soul of infinity

I need distance from the body

The mind where it should be

I just want all of us to be free

wizard

I see that s*it burning man I thought I did the killing

But you know on the other end its wining

Point in view I liked the feeling

Seems about everything it make me feel got me running

back and forth but eventually I kept coming

Why can I not do thinking

When it comes to your being

See I don't wanna be telling

That's the cause for me falling

That love I've been describing

Got me skipping and lying

I swear look me in the eyes, can you believe am dying

With every breath I'm sighing

Became closer to that sighting

Nothing existing Just familiar:enough lighting

The dark remains frightening

For those who didn't do usual crying

Then you realize you put yourself to be Mr. mining

Your God is liking

All you do has been pointing

Everyday has been b...

don't fight it

In life theres no being in the middle only, its either you die or you live. You have to choose one, and exist in one. But where ever/whatever you choose both sides still do exist. You just can't expirence opposites at once.because when you do you'll not be able to comprehend both happenings will leave you mad. You see polarities don't exist at once. You can't be happy both sad and happy at the same instant. But you could be happy a second ago then get sad on the next. And to a more broader level you can not be alive and dead at the same time but you could be l alive right now and could be dead in the next instant. So suffering i believe is the struggle of balancing to be in or juggle countinously both entities at the same time and choose one entity over the other. Its not for us to pick and choose what's existing because either way they will still continue to go on existing even if we hide from it

self-less

Cause this peace just don't feel free

That's why I cut it through. right, for the blow

But now Imma go

And I don't know, but something told me you should know

Yes, tell me will I grow?

Before Im out the door I be lying if I say about this am sure

But I grew thin and am now poor 

I should've not quested wh...

deity

Who I am understand what he say

Although I knew that I would pay

Guess now I can say I kind of overstand

On my shaky ground

For a little bit it didn't roll around

Yes I said am proud

I shout I shout no more doubt

I'm here, will you turn around?

rounds to round

let us be

Lead us on a more sensible way

If you, for sure know

While letting us choose the road

Cause we all have a different way of how to get there

and we will do the same, so we can grow together

But if not, then at list just let us be

. . .

Oh hold on I think now my soul is lost

Now its that what I lost

Here take the blame. fast,fast

F*ck that, s*it is a crass

Lots of feelings in my heart

Gots to know just where to start

I said am done, damn maybe its that part

Will I erver relate to this art

So beautiful why bluntly stare at

This must be god

So confused I must be doing bad

Only floating on what I had

I hope I was just sad

But am also mad

That's why I run around

Does it happen cause its bound? 

minute

Let us stop for a minute 

Let us stand still for a minute

Don't walk wait hold up just a minute

Let's not lable It just another minute

Can we just take it easy for a minute

Watch everything over again in this minute

may happen in this minute

I just want to be free for a minute

Who ever hears know I truly mean it

I don't wanna stay the same & just let me change for a minute

I want to be brave, I wanna feel it

I'm ready just help me unjoin my feet