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Unfinished Masterpiece

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You’re waiting for a train.

A train that will take you far away.

You know where you hope this train will take you, but you can’t be sure.

Yet it doesn’t matter.

 

I looked deeply into her eyes,

 

Now tell me why?

 

A flash back of the ultimate trust

Two individuals from different worlds

Naked, filled with love and lust

 

As I lay in the hospital bed she is all I think of

Whether it is dreams or nightmares

She is all I dream of

 

So many mistakes on my part

That it formed itself into an emotionless piece of art

 

As I stared at the masterpiece that I created

I connected lines and paths that was full of hatred

 

Nurse Jenny takes good care of me

She pushes me around

Gives me my medication and even watches me until I fall asleep

 

I’m not sure if she has family

But I tell her about mines

Well some part back in my life, that I’d consider lost time

 

The more I talk to her

For whatever reason

The more I drift into the past

 

Reminiscing

As I held her hand and we’d both laugh

 

Only then could I see

How happy we were

As she rubbed food off of my cheek

 

I closed my eyes

It was too much for me to bare

Knowing her heart would be broken

Eventually she’d walk away

But I’d be dangling from a single strand of her hair just to stay

 

Sometimes I’m in a daze, and tears come to my eyes

To see the love of my life hurt

To see my queen cry

 

Knowing that I was part to blame for her pain

But I was happy so I thought

Trying to figure out where or what part of the relationship

Did I get lost?

 

Hindsight is 20/20

So much change was thrown at me

I was found picking up the pennies

 

What mattered most which was me

Was absent and wasn’t a priority

 

Marriage:

The thought was so premature

To my mature mind

At that early stage in my life

That it began to infect my dreams at night

 

I hear voices

While I’m sleeping

While I’m dreaming

There are skeletons

Jumping out of closets in my mind

I’m possessed with these demons

 

When I’m wide awake

She consumes my mind, so much so that

I lose track of time

 

I can remember certain parts of my day

Like nurse Jenny

And the treatments

I have to take to stay alive

But truly I only take them to keep dreaming

 

I’ve lost touch of reality

But I’m stable

I’m okay tho

I observe

Only now I am able

 

To appreciate her more

I study her every move

From the unique way her left leg moves when she walks

To her top lip that twitches every 15 seconds when she talks

 

These memories are killing me slowly but the mental presents of her keeps me alive

Boy oh boy

Did I have so much pride

 

As the diamond fell

And shattered into millions of pieces in every which a way

I thought

I had no chance of picking the pieces up

Even if she helped

In my mind id be making it worst

So at that moment I decided to walk away

 

Before I turned the corner

A chill ran through my bones

As I’d never forget the look on her face

Which almost always brings me back to this place

 

Jenny you’ve been looking after me for a long while

I just want you to know

You remind me of her smile

 

I’m tired, Jenny

Tired of living

With this empty feeling

I’ve prayed every day, seems like a century

But I don’t think God hears me

 

I’m not getting any younger

It hurts when I breathe

I can’t stand up on my own

I've worn out my knees

 

It’s a constant battle in my mind

But hey, what do I have to live for

 

Jenny, she’s not coming

She's not coming to see me, is she?

 

As tears ran down my face

The medication kicks in

Everything slowed down & started to get blurry

I see Jenny waving her hand

Her mouth is moving

But i hear nothing

 

There was a lot of commotion going on

But I’m not sure if I can

Go on

 

Quicksand it seemed like

I had no control

I was sinking

Sinking into a dream,

That seemed forever unfinished

 

I closed my eyes for the last time

While still holding on to a love

As if it was my last dime

 

With the last few breaths that I had left

I squeezed Nurse Jenny hand tight

As the tears trickled from my eyes

And I repeated

 

Something that was near and dear to my heart

Something I once knew but chose to forget

It’s what kept me alive & at the same time torn me apart

 

I said faintly. ...........

 

You’re waiting for a train.

A train that will take you far away. 

You know where you hope this train will take you, but you can’t be sure.

Yet it doesn't matter.

 

Now tell me why?

 

I felt a finger gently resting upon my lips

A familiar face rubbed softly against mines

 

A scent that had stuck with me

Since the beginning of time

 

She kissed the side of my cheek

Her lips were soft as a feather

As she whispered in my ear

 

Because we’ll be together!!!

 

 

 

I would like to credit the movie Inception for inspiring my to use a line from the movie to capture the connection and relationship in this poem. 

Nolan, C., Thomas, E., DiCaprio, L., Watanabe, K., Gordon-Levitt, J., Cotillard, M., Page, E., ... Warner Home Video (Firm). (2010). Inception. Burbank, CA: Warner Bros. Entertainment, Inc.

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