messy

the weigh out

Crying to maggot brain

I’ve been gone insane

Sad to think strength was my pain

Hid it so

Well,

What I was

Taught,

Until it left me, bruised inside out

The only way out

Weakness

Who would've thought?

Yours

I have beef with you. you so beautiful but I am convinced. You are ugly! You are both where the ocean of wickedness begins and the ocean of empathy climaxes. The place of chastising and the place of freedom. Simultaneously ! All at once. So who are we? We came out of the best of yourself making love to the worst of you. As the darkness ***ed the shine out of your light. As they merge in the name of love to create a bunch of hate ridden offsprings. The child was born with the skin of light while the darkness dwelled inside. Did we ask to be born? No, But we did. And it’s all your fault! Now I am like you. The darkest of you is now the lightest part of me. And some of my siblings are destined to live the other way around. They look too dark to be my kin. But I tell them, “not all skin folk is kin folk.” They never listen to me. I tell them I’m wearing their life inside-out .and they, mine. WOW.

Wine me

That red wine baby it's a trip
It do things to me I see you peep
I'm really trying not to dip
Cause this hard for me ya know I'm too hip
But I'm disturbed baby *** i still sip

Out control honey from the glass to your lip
Oh this feeling I wish to keep
I used to write about it 
Dream bout it
Think about it
My wants bout it
Now I'm intoxicated
I don't think I can escape it
Back off my top know nothing can top it
Can't drift Your words seem  to cop it
Stop it!
I fight it
Ooh baby baby I'm drowning in it
Your eyes helps me float around it
Don't tip toe it 
Incense light it
The cloud you make it
Save it 
Tame it 

Return of

The night holds 
Such high hopes
But honey once it goes 
You see the white  left on your nose
How it got you hugging with your foes
How dirty water undressed the mask on your souls
The last thing we remember the calm when it pours
The cloud was my force
Almighty is the source
If the plant has the wisdom why not the walking corpse
The leaf but knew it had to go through a course
A phase a bit of pause a pose
No rebel no cause
Wanna count our loss 

why I stopped asking how

words you can find around confusion

Why do I know now what I sense

Am so confused but the other side could care less

Oh s**it they're both a mess

They playing on me,bored of chess

Still I board knowing this the chase had lured me to grace

No way this not no phase

I believed it wasnt an ending race

I intigured a face

11 times NOooo its laced

My mirror is displaced

Turnt upside down an image it displayed

So I read it how it read

But its so blurred on the head

I could never figure out the end

Too heavy so they said

My sight was catching this fade

unfinished

I thought you would get it light, nah Skipped it how you chose

I ain't lie if I say I know it right, sometimes i judge false

How could i possibly might, I think what your mind echos 

Another pony thinking horse

Oh just go ahead let's count all yo h*"es

Thats what matters the most

Even if it tucks your heart you will stop at no no's

But baby its that time, its your loss

There's no damn kiss in the pause

Run that sh*t I know they taste lies

Allow me to cut ties

I am getting good at these bye's

Don't I look different in the eyes

sad for me & nice for we

if they cried for this twice

Giddy now I spit your motor price

Ashes to ashes see as the old me dies

Seven days and seven nights

Been trying to reach my heights

Come

dear friend

Don't assume what you thinking

Don't identify with your feelings

Don't label where your standing

Don't cause your temple turn into a building

Don't mind whats upstairs there's a lot down its covering

Go on sing your song

Write that story aint nothing wrong

If its your truth then you ain't lying

is it true?

Appetite for truth and knowledge aren't separate things, different but never separate. Either you start with an appetite for knowledge or truth, the goal is the truth. Always and anways; whatever knowledge we seek, why we seek it is to get to the truth of it. But truth is so simple that its so complicated for the mind to understand

the burden that breeds

Never thought all of it will be mine to carry

I can't yeah so weak of me

Calm drought its all maybe

I'm accepting the fact it fades slowly

Who I am is very real so silently