In silence i waited for you as you packed your belongings and permanently moved out of my heart. Shattering an eternity of memories; you were everything that completed me. I waited as you quickly and sloppily folded up your previous "i love you's" into a balled up pile of crap on my bedroom floor....why are you in such a hurry to leave? I waited for you to finish, i am always waiting on you to finish. I watched as you Tuck away my tears like a wrinkled old shirt, and I forced myself to be strong, because tears are for the weak. And i was a fool to be so intoxicated with you and all of you, but still i waited. Waited for you to love me, waited for you to leave me, waited for you to hurt me, waited for you to forget me, all of that and i still waited, in silence as you obnoxiously threw my feelings into the garbage along with the miscellaneous s**t that you are now throwing away because since you won't be spending time here anymore, you don't need this stuff because you can't take this home with you, because then she will find out. How can I wait so f***ing long? I need to know if it's her smile? Can she light up a room the way that I can? Or maybe it's the depth of her mind? I'm not too sure but i know that i share the same qualities so how can you leave one and not the other?....and again i am waiting for your response. I am always waiting. But we are always ending, love has no boundaries or rules, but yet you continuously set them for me. So i sit here crushed, waiting for the afternoon to come because waking up in the mornings are so painful and the evenings are lonley and unbearable. I waited as you left me...here in darkness, to deal with my own emotions and try and make sense of what happened....what did i do to you? What did i say to make you want to leave? I can promise you that if you stay just a little bit longer, I can make you change your mind, because i would rather have a small peice of you than nothing at all. But you want to leave, and you are packing up that suitcase full of emotions like there will be no tomorrow, kissing me goodbye from a distance, I don't want to let you go, but I am failing at ways to make you stay....so what can I do besides wait? I should stab you, cut at you like a dog for making me wait long enough for you to get your fill and break my heart....who the f**k do you think that you are? Burning the evidence that you and i have ever existed together. I should do it, you know.... I should drive this cold steel right in the heart and blindside you, the same way that you did me. But i wait, i am always waiting when it comes to you, and i think of what will happen to this child that i am carrying, and i realize that no matter how much you say that you are done with me, i will always have a peice of you. I will always be around....and then, you will never forget me.
Tali
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The waiting game
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mrmelody7 says: Lady of knowledge cant take a break without commenting on your rare gems long time since you posted that moving pizza poetry of yours, always like watching mini movie reading your work hope you and the little one have a wonderful summer |
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Tali says: Thank you I know. Although I don't consider myself a writer I was definitely experiencing some writers block. But I decided to try some new things. As always thanks so much for thd feedback! |
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hymnagen says: You may not consider yourself a writer, but you gift says otherwise. This is an immersive read and a beautiful write, Tali_sosweet |
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Poetic08' says: Nicely written Queen |
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Tali says: Thank you so much! |
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love_supreme says: Excellent write! |
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Where people who look like me will shoot at me
And people who look like me have been murdered for nothing
Or less than.......
The hands who’ve slayed them have been brown
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But I am also in imminent danger amongst them as well?
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UntitledHere,
I stand,
Desolate, shrouded in anger, guilt and despair,
Is it too much to know your worth?
To know that you were meant for more than just pain.
I was meant for love
A love that is my own
A love that I deserve
One that will follow me until the end of time
Tap into my soul
I beg you daily, and you miss the chance to know me
To see the parts of me that aren't so beautiful
To see my tears,
Maybe wipe them sometimes
Hug me until they dry
Make me feel like everything will be ok for once
And that you'll be here
When there... |
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Lips don't lie?
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Poetry Vibe
Free to be an angel of words Raining down wisdom or sorrows, or joy, or happiness or pain Either way journeying through someone's mind Through their thoughts Their words Their deepest emotions Here, I am able to be myself No fears No concerns of who may or may not read Just grateful for the outlet And so humbled by so many kind souls Who look at me and see poet When I just see me I have never considered myself a poet Or a writer I had no idea how confident that I'd become in a gift that has been bonded to my soul I only know that here, I am able to share with you all peices of myself Exploration into my mind In a land that feels like home Thank you for creating this platform And allowing poets to roam so freely. |
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