Ive been suppressed by anti depressants. Remember on christmas i never had presents. My father would call, made histake a message. Since he never blessed his son with his presence.
I got scars on my body and scars on my soul. Light skinned exterior, spirit blacker than coal. When i was a child i never had goals. I thought i would die, never reach twenty foe
Should i get mad when they tell me im nothing, they right. Sometimes i would think about takin they life. But id have to remind me im wasting my life. I aint wasting a charge, id be wasting my time.
Emotions are dead, i dont believe in a friend. I got set up by someone id love till the end. See i used bang crip, now she *** with a blood. I left when i found that it wasnt real love.
I moved out the house, while my mind was off balance. She was all that i wanted, why couldnt i have it. I learned that nobody gon gimme no help. Got no ones support, so i focus on self.
Stop gang bangin, dont rob, and quit slangin. My bruthas got mad cuz a brutha quit hangin. I knew they was, cuz they knew my girl changed. And they didnt say , my relationships strained.
Back to school, now im back to work. Got me liftin daily till my back would hurt. Collect my check, and guess whos back? Every single person that i knew from the past...
U say want affection, u took it all away n i can never love again..... Im glad that u did cuz now i can see who was really my friend...
Hii Yella
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Hii Yella says: Typos lol my bad i just went off and hit submit |
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love_supreme says: I can feel this poem. Excellent write. |
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