I recently got diagnosed
With a rare form of muscular dystrophy
At least I now have a name to my pain
And it’s no longer a mystery
Also having severe classical Fibromyalgia syndrome and Scleroderma
Periodic Limb Movement Disorder, dementia and spinal degeneration
I have suffered for over three years of insurmountable pain and strain
That led me to focus more on God with daily prayer and meditation
And although I have liver disease too to add to the list
I no longer get angered at God and at the heavens shake my fist
I have learned to love no matter my circumstance and so I choose to continue to exist
No capacity for being able to work fully
Feels like Satan has beaten me to the ground because he’s just a big bully
I’m not ignorant nor am I the type to live with dumb blind faith yet I do
But its not blind faith when things do come through
And now this is not a letter or poem
To have you look down upon me with pity or disdain
I have chosen to offer my life to Christ
By sacrificing any type
Of worldly gain or lustful thoughts in my brain
I know although my flesh is weak and my bones are breaking
It’s only because the devil thinks that my soul he is taking
But he could only “take†that which I truly only give him
And I refuse to lose in the end of my days so I wont walk with him
Thus I use poetry as my tool
To vent out my frustration and my pain
And in the process help others in whatever manner
Cause to me that's true worship of God and my true spiritual gain
SkTzO