What Do I Want?

I'm Hold*En On To...

Whenever I am lonely, I'm Hold*En on to our joyful memories to keep me company.

  When I am weakened by circumstances, I'm Hold*En on to you for strength.

When my windows to the soul are full with glistening tears, I'm Hold*En on to the times you made me laugh.

When my travels take me away from you. I'm Hold*En on to the remembrance of the places we were most happy.

When the day comes that brings me untold sorrow, I'm Hold*En on to you for comfort.

When my body aches for your touch, I'm Hold*En on to the passion you created within my soul when you touched my skin.

When life happens, I'm Hold*En on to everything that our love represents. Companionship, Strength, Laughter, Happiness, Memories, Comfort and Passion.

Hungry Hippo is My Best Friend

How strange it must seem to have a Hippo for a best friend. For me, it's the most natural thing in the world. Some Hippos are called “Beach Masters” because they get the best babes, but not my Hungry. My Hungry has eyes for only one.

  Hippos are loyal creatures and Hungry is no different. He protects me with his fierce roar willing to upend boats, flip people and hurt folkses feelings just for messing with me.

He places his mouth gently upon my nose and makes his hilarious Hippo noises. Causing me to laugh with delight until I snort laughter sounding just like a lady Hippo.

Of course I don't have a REAL Hippo for a best friend. My Hungry is a man who stands 6 feet tall, salt and pepper hair and is drop dead gorgeous.

Although he may not be a Hippo, he does indeed make me laugh and snort when he makes Hippo sounds. He is ABSOLUTELY my best friend and protector of my love and life.

Maybe ...

The Ghost in My Heart

  I'm never truly alone because he is ever-present. Though he is invisible, his presence is always acutely felt.

I recall the many hours we lay in the wonder which is our love. He is my lover who brings me to that glorious conclusion of self satisfaction.

My mind replaying the touch of his lips upon my flesh. His hands ravishing my body to exhaustion.

My solitude and peace are found within him, people and places hold no interest. We never quarrel nor do we apologize. Our love is perfection.

He is relegated to dwell solely within my heart. I am no longer permitted to trace his face with my finger.

For his physical being lie within a bronze metallic enclosure deep within...

Shattered

“All I want is you” The bait which hid the barb of deceit, I engulfed in its entirety. Never once halting to consider the undertow swirling at the entrance to my heart.

  “I love you”. The canon which attested to the validity of the powerful verbal triad. How was I to know there were hidden agendas, subplots and treachery underneath the glassy reflection of the verbiage?

“I would never hurt you”. The sharpened end of the hook which guaranteed that I would be distracted from the temporary sting of being impaled by the lured hook of dishonesty.

“You're one of those who is all about you. Who's used to m******f####rs doing everything for you!!!”. Began the barrage of words formed into sentences intended to wound but not kill, just yet.

“This isn't working for me any longer because you're aren't who I thought you were”. The explosive device used to oblit...

They Get On My F****** Nerves!!!

I would love to hear from you when things are cool. But alas, this is never the case.

 At the sound of your personal four alarm fire, which is missing its fourth. This deficient  alarm, your voice, peels out loudly; the words "HELP ME". Thus involving me as the latest defense against a new catastrophe.

"What had happened was." Is always the preamble to the shenanigans brought about by failing to heed the words highlighted within sound advice.

The impossibly simple is transformed into the impossibly difficult. Using the proofs of other's success instead of creating triumphs of your own.

I have no delusions that this "hair on fire" routine will ever be laid to rest, in my lifetime.

So at the ready I stand, with the "three W's", waiting, watching and wondering when I will be called upon again to solve a Herculaneum task. 

After slaying the dragon, banishing t...

WELL DAMN!!!

When you're waiting for an important phone call and everybody else but that person is calling you and you miss that important call, all you can say is....WELL DAMN!!!

  You wash your car on a beautiful sunny day. You buffed it to a high sheen and she's looking so good and the minute you get behind the wheel a hellacious storm dumps gallons of water on your pristine car, all you can say is....WELL DAMN!!!

You're sporting your brand new "favorite" snow white outfit and your kid brushes up against you with the ketchup that is clinging to his hands and you're now sporting a white and ketchup outfit, all you can say is....WELL DAMN!!!

When the biggest bigot in the world decides to run for president and is voted as the candidate for the Republican party and in doing so literally destroying the Republican party and has the members of the Republican party ACTIVELY trying to get rid of this man, all you can do is LAUGH and say...

Forgive Me

If I seem to be in constant motion, forgive me; I have a lot to do on this Earth and little time to get it done.

If I speak too loud or too fast, forgive me; I'm just excited.

If I use too many words, forgive me; I just want to be understood.

If I text you too much, forgive me; I just want you to know how often you cross my mind.

If sometimes I don't make sense, forgive me; just the thought of you frazzles my nerves and ties my tongue.

If I weep like now, forgive me; I've imagined a great future for us that you haven't seen.

If I use your words, forgive me; they are too profound for my ears alone.

If I push too hard, forgive me; I have had to fight for everything I've gained.

If I resist, forgive me; I don't trust easily and need a gentle hand.

Whatever I may do, forgive me; I only do it because of you.

Tall, handsome enigm...

And He Said

  But as is often the case, one misadventure after another befell her until she no longer soared at all. Not above, not alongside but decidedly below the beautiful people.

She was in a land of nightmares where haunting terrors lodged around every corner seeking to rob her. She lost...one by one...her beauty...her health and now threatening to go...her mind which contained her self esteem and assurance.

Languishing days multiplied into years. Time spent in reclusive solitude. Rarely venturing into the sunlight to bask in its rejuvenating glow.

Until one glorious day, she saw HIM. "WELL DAMN", she cried. In her eyes, he was stunning to behold. A flicker, was that a flicker? No, it was a glimmer. He was a ...

What Do I Want?

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