Drilling ME!(01/01/16)

Drilling ME!(01/01/16)

Get it off me! I don't want it!

Can't take it! No longer fake it!

My inward becomes outward

My strength has turned coward

What was so sweet has now turned sour,

Completely devoured.. It...has...lost..power!

I've endured, endured, dished out, endured

Being forced back, I just want to move forward.

Starting to feel as if i've been preyed upon..lured

Lured into a broken home

Used to feel like a queen..I now feel dethrowned!

From my heart to my chest I can feel it in my bones!

Litterally                 has never been more real to me!

I used to be the illest                   now I am just ill to me!

I thank God for my strength... this relationship is killing me..

Focus

In search of a new beginning, a way out, an escape.

Physical signs of anxiety as the hairs rise upon the back of my nape.

Change is so close, so near, so dear to me.

I get lost in fantasy as I fantasize of how great things will be.

No longer a mental movie as my motion picture becomes reality.

Striving pushing forward from an immature mentality.

Self detructive, mutilating, brutality

Blinded by hurt and pain, enough for insanity

Sight with new eyes, new light, new amity.

A rebirth, redesign, recreation from past calamity.

It will only get better.....My appreciation for growth.

Persist, prevail, provide abundant hope!