I'm no victim

There's a woman

There's a woman
Walking alone into a yogurt cafe
Politely eats her yogurt.
On the outside she seems stable and put together 
The truth lays below the skin
Under her smile
Tears wishing to fall
She holds them back.
It's raining outside
She drives though the storm
To lay in her bed
To be alone
Again 

I'm no victim

It feels  like I'm stuck 
Two feet in quick sand
On and off for as long as I can remember 
 glue holding me stationary 
My spiritual self has been lost in the sadness
Near the surface trying to come
Why do I hold on to this broken past
The past may sculpt the present and future
It can no longer
Let me crack the quick sand
I'm no victim
I am not
My life now I've made for myself 
The best I've ever done
I'm not 5 years old, or 9 years old, 16,18
None in between 
23
No longer the victim 
I can control my present
Hatches, drills, anything to remove my feet 

-Starcy Sanchez