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Feeling weakened and as if my world is about to stop.
Waking up everyday and feeling my spirit about to rot.
Doing all I can with my given hand and what not.
And no matter how much suffering confronts me I choose to not stop!
I will work non-stop to get to the top before my clock does stop.
Always working hard as I’m hoping to get my wife a good size rock.
My boat has been in dock yet still running to the top as my breath gives way.
At a time I did sway but did not allow myself to become hollow or shallow on any day.
Optimistic narcissism has always been the answer to my sinister psychological cancer.
And even though I’ve turned to spirituality as a way, not today is what my mind does say.
How can I become intellectually numb?
When doing so is like pretending that I’m dumb?
Still fighting while writing and plotting my next move.
What time has been allotted to me and my time in this earth face?
Feels like I’m a disgrace but never mind the desire to be chaste
What a waste knowing that my spirit is a created man made paste.
Physically, spiritually & intellectually speaking intrinsically.
Hoping that my labor and exhaustion will lead me to control my created industry.
Cause my life being in the hands of another man with power.
Can’t allow myself to fall into the instability and incredibility of lies til my last breathing hour.
And for that I must say without any hesitation.
That for so long I have been full of vexation & so much aggravation!
The dilapidation and continual procrastination of my minds elevation.
Has led me to believe that I am near my final destination.
My destination being, the eventual spiritual fleeing & decreeing.
Entering into the promise land of blessing while growing from life’s lessons.
I have noticed my persistent progression from mental digression and into my desired place on this earths face
Not seeking the chastity or profanity but evolving into a higher form of humanity.
In need to include the love and extrovert energy from my loving family.
Almost went to the brink of insanity while seeking to raise my spirits capacity.
Living in isolation and desecration for so long has atrophied my ability for internal tranquility.
Pleading for financial stability within this world of instability.
My eventual hope is to learn to deal with & cope.
Not always having the opportunity arise before my eyes, to reach out and touch the skies.
And although I recognize that we must realize the lies that bind the blind.
I do not want to be included in the fold of the blind leading the blind or being a mind
Which is confined to a negative state of mind.
So thus I must learn to only self-trust and trust in self is a must without any regret.
Cause it is I that abides and confides in He who does not lie nor allow me to fret.
So I am proud to suggest the spiritual best to omnipotent power up in the sky and yet here.
For it is God who has held me near and made it clear, that my fam is who I should forever trust & love dear!
SkTzO
