Hostage
Imprisoned by my mind
Thoughts getting pass the stop sign
The past just won't go away
Resurfacing no matter the place nor time of day
I thought I knew the steps to take
In order to not relive a past mistake
Here again at a familiar spot
Wondering if I should crawl back into my box
I'm imprisoned by unwanted thoughts
Being held hostage and my emotions slaughtered
I made a bad choice, lesson learned
But must the consequences have a life of its own
Growing learning is a process
And occasionally I might create a mess
But the problem now is how
to let go and forgive
So that in the past I don't have to re-live
It will take two in order to get to my truth
Another who'll listen and not judge what I'm going through
One who can give meaning to the past
Or help me see I'm the one who's making it last
Let me to back up for a minute
Now it's only your truth and I'm nowhere in it
My role was to allow myself to be used
Like a neophyte I didn't consider consequences nor the rules
Now held hostage and feeling like a fool
You can say you're "sick" and believe it to be a good excuse
Leaving me stuck with feelings of shame
A well taught lesson the need to foster friendship has changed
I trusted too soon didn't consider what problems
would/could arise
Feeling shame all because the I in me should have been denied
I'm being held hostage by me
There won't be a next time and soon I'll be free
Free knowing that your perception does not have to be my reality
Therefore no longer will I be held hostage
I now have the tools to arrest my thoughts
But most importantly you've shown me what you're about
alw