I Was Then, But I Am Now

When I Found Consciousness

I found consciousness in forest hills arboretum.

After sitting there and actually reading between the breeze, and listening for hours I began to feel it. 

I would see the ants walking past my foot so uniformly, 

and I learned what it meant to be civilized, and unified. 

I saw the wind blowing through the trees, and I learned what it meant to be rhythmic.

I heard the birds, and learned of song.

I took off my shoes, and introduced my soul to the ground. 

The ants came to greet me.

And the sun warmed my feet,

as if embracing them for the first time.

I felt the consciousness of All.

I felt Life, and all that lies therein.

I looked up and beheld the sun.

The sun then wrapped its rays around me 

Seemingly getting hotter, and heavier.

It was speaking to me.

Over and over again it repeated...

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Weird Brother of Solitude

I am different.

From most others 

I am different

Even from my tribe.

Why this is 

I don't know,

but I know that it is. 

Solitude leaves me with myself,

The only one who understands myself. 

In solitude I have planted my soul,

and like a mighty tree my soul has sprung,

In solitude my soul grows 

Weeping and consumed with laughter.

Happy and mad, angry and glad.

My soul and solitude are one.

A perfect kind of broken 

Is the state of my being.

I am a man who loves, but by himself.

A man who grows, but not in the same way.

This man grows forward and around all others.

Unlike a branch, who grows only for more of himself to grow.

This man is strong, and weaker than all there   is. 

I Was Then, But I Am Now

I was the evil one

So it seems,

for my mind dwells among the pillars of isolation, and my body in the temples of solitude.

Praise and glory to my Master Teacher.

He who has given me purpose.

I was the evil one 

So it seems,

My lips have met the lips of desire,

and my tongue has tasted the essence of passion.

But better am I today,

It was he the master that brought me forth,

and exclaimed.

"You are now free wild one.

You shall join us now."

You see I was the sacrificed one,

he with no direction. 

I was a balance between negative and positive.

I was the pendulum. 

One who's love was feared,

for all knew my hate could be just as great.

I was the benevolent one,

all came to me for answers.

I loved them so,...

I am Darkness

I am darkness.

From my heart to my soul.

I am darkness,

and from me rose the eternal sun. 

I am darkness.

Just as the universe is one.

Infinite is my presence. 

Finite is the lights that be. 

I am darkness,

and darkness is how I'll stay. 

And through time will come a day. 

When you to will say. 

I am darkness, 

and in eternal black is where I'll pray.

My departure ( A Gift for Mother Earth)

My death will not be without worth.

Birds will sing in celebration.

Dogs will howl in recognition.

The earth will proudly let me go.

I am now greater,

for I was God,

and as God they knew me.

The Earth will express her love,

for I have given my flesh as a gift. 

And my love for all she is.

was engraved within me.

I became food for the scavengers.

I fertilized brother tree.

For this, nature will always hold my image

within her eternal mind.

What a worthful death. 

A full expression of my gratitude.

A death that brings life.

A death worthy of recreation.

A gift to my mother earth. 

And a transformation from my liquid self

to the clouds above, 

for I was made of that which I consumed.

So I gave of myself, so as to rise 

My Fallen Sister

You must realize Sister,

that I am your Brother.

We walked across the surface of the sun

hand in hand.

We told the stories of creation,

which still travel through our dualverse.

When you wept,

so did I.

You are my focus

during my deepest meditation.

I could only hope that I am yours.

I pray you have not forgotten

our journey to this realm.

The place in which I incarnated

through you.

You are my sister,

yet the seed in which I grew.

My love for you

is nothing less than divine,

but I am afraid that I have lost you.

Do you see me as your brother?

Do you overstand the love I have for you?

Everything in me hopes you do.

Before you answer know that 

I will forever be here.

In spite of my fear,

and my fallen tear,

I'll always be near.

The Vibrant

The etherian vibrant is my soulful name. 

I derive from the nine.

I am the triple darkness in this world of lightness,

for my vibrations are eternal,

this earth was given to dark matter,

In the end we are all that's left. 

Divine, supreme, God.

Realize that I speak not

from the land of ego.

My tone derives from the stars above,

engraved in my soul is the name

Sirius,

and in my heart Orion.

I am not great,

but rather apart of greatness.

I am an opposition,

one of many,

of the tall tales, and illusion 

many fall under.

If only my words can be overstood,

my soul would sing in joy.

I will no longer be alone 

in our ancient land.

The hidden place

of eternal sand.