depression

OH NO NO...

Today is just a day.

We used to celebrate.

But now it’s just a day. that I ***ing hate.

Oh no no

Sometimes I wished that we

Never had sex and went our separate ways. 

Now we’re just dumb and foolish in our ways

Oh no no...Wait. 

Time and time again.

Breakup make up again.

You listen to your friends. 

They want us to end. 

Oh no no. 

Sometimes I wished that they. 

Only would talk when something nice to say. They may know a lot but nothing about me. 

Oh no no... Wait.

Two kids eight and four. 

I love them more and more. 

Our daughter is a queen, her mother is a whore. Oh no no. 

Sometimes I wished that you. 

Left me the kids to do just what you do. 

Never a fool but dammit girl I knew. 

Oh ...

THATS REAL!!!

 My best advice to you is live your life. Dont let another mf tell you whats wrong or right. We walk our own path my foot trail longer than a sentence to life. im 26 now my future is bright. i made mistakes hoping thru the process my decisions were right. The definition of life. Who wouldve known that I'll have 2 kids and a Wife to be, a wonderful site to see, the one they dont like to see. Cause as a black man we rarely get to see 18. Cops shooting us down. Killing all our dreams. lord i pray for all the young Martin Luther Kings. somebody gotta do it. I pray my son dont have to go thru it. I look him dead in his eyes and tell him son you the prize and hope you realize. The Generation of real men still alive. thats real...

30 hours

work work work work or should i call it home. ive been working all day, too ***ing long. My supervisor ask me to stay, hell naw!!! i gotta Girl and 2 kids Mannn Im going home. peace! i skrtt off in my honda accord. no music no speakers i couldnt afford, so i did a lot of thinking going home... talking to myself like whats really going on. Damn! im talking to myself, we all do. nobody understand you better than you do. You your only ears when nobody else hears you. In other words... trust your self you know. i got home kiss my Girl and kids told them hello. went str8 to the studio to drop this flow It goes "I hate my job this ishh gotta go cause this week i did 30 hours  plus mo" It goes...

depression

i use to think theres something wrong with me until one day my Dawg said aint nothing wrong with ya. you just afraid of whats new. you afraid of missing out on everything you wanna do. i said "true" as i slowly sip some more liqour...

  depressed forgetting that i am so gifted. mama always use to say boy you so gifted. Now shes gone nobody to keep my soul lifted. Writing songs and poems to help me cope with it.. as i slowly sip somemore liqour....

man life can be so hard so hard like when you buy a new car a new car and you wreck soon as you take off in it...

My girl call my celly just to see whats up with me. she ask me why i foward her calls and text message. Are you cheating or what!?! is it somebody else man i really need to know keep it real with me. the truth hurts and lies dont feel no different. so i told her yea even tho im not cheating. I need time to my self!!! as i slowly sip some more liqour, yea...

man life can be ...

Love Lost

Our kisses don't feel like our first kiss anymore. The time we spend together are starting to come to a bore. Everything I thought was right was really all wrong. I never thought loving you for ever would be loving you to long. When I hear your sweet voice I use to smile. Now when I hear your voice theres a bitter frown. We use to be happy like fun time in the summer, but now we cry and argue like rain with thunder. Sex is becoming just a stress relief thing. No more passionate love more like guilt and pain. I love you's turning into I hate you. Our wedding vows seeming to be untrue. We vowed to have and to hold from this day forward; for better, for worse, for richer, for poorer, in sickness and in health, to love, cherish, and obey, till death us do part, yet we're still here but feel so apart. We both thought that we found love but as sad as it is love lost.

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nobody knows

She say Nobody knows her struggle. they only see the smile that she puts on her face, but i here it in her voice. all the suffering and pain she can't hide it from me. Heres her story. She say she never had a real man in her life. her father left when she was two and and her pass relationships well you know... When she was ten Her mom died from a drug overdose and All her life she felt nothing but alone. A little girl lost in a big world with no one to depend on. Caught up in the system no brothers and sisters. her only hope was God tho... Tho she question him why me what did i do wrong. She was in three different foster homes until she was grown. She then decided to attend college. She then Grew into a beautiful young lady with a nice body, shaped. But Here comes trouble again her first semester she was raped. Impregnated and now forced with more choices she didn't make, lucky ...she didn't have HIV but she was torn so bad it was surprising how no one can see how hurt she can b...