I'm Not Free

Take Me To The Water

Filled with evil, my heart tore. My soul in agony, wanting nothing more. But to be cleansed and washed by the healing stream. The cleansing stream plunges and washes me. I am no longer bathe in sin. I am healed by your waves of love that crashes over me. I rise to walk in a new life. I am certain of my destiny. It's a new day dawning in the water, where all my sins are washed away. Take me to the water to be baptized and I'll open my eyes with new life. Take me to the water where I'll be made whole by love. -Nicky 

Precious Blood

Love gave me you, your blood made me new. As it was pouring I saw life. I felt love renewing, my heart being made whole. Saving grace of your spirit sealed unconditional love. Uniting me with precious blood and going on into eternity. Thank you for the abundance of love. -Nicky

Sorrow is better than laughter

My heart cringes, scary realties set in. Hope is gone, my help is feeble. 
tears don't seem to cease, laughter comes dancing through the pain. Through every smile is my song of sadness. I long for when hurting will come to an end, only the heart's joy is awaiting. But until then I sit in silence, while the sorrows of my heart are enlarged and surrounds me continuously as I wait for you. Waiting for your soul to set me free. The king of love there's  where I find my eternity. Beneath your wings is where I'm free. And all the pain is swelled in bundles of smiles and sweet laughter where the envelope of brokenness held my pain. -Nicky 

Safe in Thy Hands

Safety is a secret place of Love

It’s the security of peace and lasting happiness 

It’s joy when your heart is sad 

Thy hands hold me up through uncertainties 

Difficult moments open to embrace your presence 

A new heart is found with you 

and in you there is the legacy of salvation 

I can find myself in other secret places 

But the most joy I find is being with you 

Safe in your hands

-Nicky

True joy

My Heart is soaring, my spirit free. I have found the treasure of love that is irresistible. Engaging every part of me. Making me clean and free. The soul is at its utmost and highest of peace. True joy is found with thee. Thank you -Nicky 

The Pain Inside my Heart

Squeezing of my lungs
It’s toughly pressed within my chest
The hard cores of my flesh
raging deeply inside me
Screaming for relief from this fear
Crying in anguish to remove the snare
Of evil that has been cursed on my lips
and death that has surround me in a kiss
My pain awakens in me and shouts aloud to stop the plague of sin
It ruining my soul
and leaving me Unforgiven
Is there any hope for me?

By Nicky 

Ocean Rider

“ The waves came today crashing at me and I saw within it your love soaring. Today I just went, me and my surfboard underneath the heat of the ocean. I saw lovely things as the waves crashed together beneath me. I flew over every tide and thought of the many struggles that tried to break my smile. I knew I won every heartache by rising over every tide with my surf board in the tide of the midnight cry of my life!”

A Boys Wonder

Staring at the sky and watching its sunset, the little boy begins to dream and feels a sense of beauty fill his heart. His eyes gaze in the wonder of such a beautiful creation and wonders of beauty. The clouds dance towards him and sing in soft melodies as it paints colors across the widespread sky. He begins to think there must be a God and if there is he is greater than me. In his soul opens a flood of love and he knows because it’s everywhere. ~Nicky

Forever Ocean

“ I know the ocean lives. The waves dream and the islands sing.

All of creation shares its story, life within me is crying for hope. 

My heart is broken to conquer myself and gain victories

Can I move my body through the waves

and let my soul be encaved 

warped by the energy of my pain

to be delivered to say

I am a free ocean

of love and pain.

I am the movement of life

and the story of a dream

that is now forever

because forever lives in me

ever with my God to be”

-Nicky

Music's Life

“A heart of music,

words write a song

the melody I hear

keeps going on

it doesn’t doesn’t fade away..

with painful memories in the dark

it grows where we can never be torn apart.

Stay close to love and let your heart feel

all the sounds that seemed so unreal.

For you will hear each tune with every breath

and it will make the most of your death

where two heartstrings have met”

-Nicky