For him....
For him you are blind
as if a veil sewn from unbreakable threads of deceit has been cast over your eyes
Your lacking direction
your broken body,soul,mind
for him you pawned your heart
in exchange for fleeting feelings and passing pleasures
holding onto moments in which it appeared you were important
it appeared that you were more than mere..moans...and breaths uncontrolled
and a few seconds of heaven
now your self you are second guessing
cuz for him the truth of your souls arrested
for him you've lost liberation
staring deep in mirrors with doubt
unrecognizably contemplating your
physical anatomys compilation
for him you were never good enough
your only reaching for his shallow standard
life out of control,reaching for a handle
reaching just to manage
who you are ..and who you've become
for him ....cause of him
you've done things ,you never done .. .for him
out of what you thought was love for him
the flower that is your essence has lost its beautiful extremities
inching towards lifelessness
bearing its beaten
and weathered being for all to
observe
barley enduring this pain that strains your very roots and the health of your soul
those around you mourn
as they witness the worth of you wither
within this winding roller coaster that
your emotions are enclosed in
for him
you are hopeless
your only hope is ..healing wounds
that are still open
physically,mentally, emotionally
daily its haunting me ...
he claimed he would never use such
an aggressive touch on me
now I'm battered
but for him it doesn't matter
it is love
I will settle and accept all of the above
for him
this pain is my secret
sacrificing my sanity for sex
selling my serenity for
acceptance from him
for him
I've given all that I am and will
ever be
but as I grow to wonder and understand
what has he done for me?
SoulofSeven
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