Fighting This War

 I suit up for this battle

My declarations of non-appreciation are the reason for this war situation.

What once was a beautiful palace gracious empire called our home; Is now a horrid malefic war zone.

As much as I loved the good times, I cannot let it intervene with the tragedy I've been encountering.

To understand the difference of an "I love you" to "I want to control you". That every kiss on my forehead was just another bomb on the battlefield.

Someone I loved so dearly, close to me. Has me now sleeping with the enemy. In a short amount of time I embraced your flaws and kissed your battle scars. which lead to a longer road of excuses, covered up by the word Love.

Your hugs turned to grips that got tighter, and your voice got louder.

How much more would I allow myself to take until my life was at stake, for goodness sake, lonely nights I prayed. To have enough strength to leave you.

I had to let go

I loved you more than anything in this world, but you didn’t love me. You love the thought of controlling me. The thought of losing me was a thought of not being able to use me, not being able to abuse me mentally.

So, I'm ending this war.

Back to my base, and bringing peace back to my life

I'm done fighting this war.