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There was a time when we could just
Sit and lough,
Or even go wine and dine
Without worrying about the bill amount.
There was a time when we could
Take long strolls to the park,
Or even go on little nature trail walks.
Then that time soon changed
It was as if I was stuck in a mirage,
Where you had no imperfections
Filling my soul with genuine belief.
Truth be told
I was getting manipulated,
I wasn’t that precious pearl
That you made me out to be.
I was more like your personal toy,
Did everything you asked.
That was until you laid your hands on me
Then calling me every name in the book.
You put my body into shock,
Not knowing whether to tell you
I HATE YOU,
Or to act like it never took place,
And all you could do was say sorry Babe
While watching these tears leave my face.
It took two more times for me to notice,
That this ongoing pain would not stop
And saying I LOVE YOU wouldn’t quite do it,
I was being physically and mentally abused.
It seemed like the only right thing to do
Was to walk away,
With so much anger and pain
Built inside of me.
It felt like a weight was being lifted off my back,
And that two year nightmare slowly eased
Stilling haunting me inside at times
Giving me no choice
But to always have my guard up,
From here on out
Every flaw was seen in my eyes
And I knew I deserved better.
