Sitting here contemplating
So much it's aggravating
Where's my love? I'm tired of waiting
Too many paths, I start debating
Choices are laying before me
Stretching further than eyes see
How ever far I can't even hitchhike
It all feels wrong it seems like
Whichever you choose
You'll most likely lose
Don't mind him, jump, try to fly
You'll sore or be sore, can't hurt to try
Well I guess I can't be picky
Things may be tricky
If I never step, I'll never know
Letting myself take a chance and go
This one here has the least invested
Start from scratch, nothing tested
The waters couldn't be clearer
Issue being how do I get near her
Not a problem physically
More so just emotionally
How do you approach love to a stranger
That may end up as emotional danger
Well that one may not be right
You're going in without sight
What's life without taking a risk
Search her soul, why hesitate, stop and frisk
Maybe you're right, I still don't know
All of my fears, I should let them go
So I'll take yet another chance
Trying to find my true romance
This next path that I've chose
Has all the qualities of rose
Beauty in every single petal
With razor sharp thorns of metal
Though further in I've given more time
To not continue would be a crime
Yet also a crime to keep my cover
Secrets love as she belongs to another
Never letting everything slip away
Regardless, in my heart she will stay
The longer I stay the more I invite pain
With bad karma beating me with it's cane
You set yourself up for heartbreak
Well done, your heart is part steak
It's not it wasn't only you doing wrong
It was a duet, not a solo song
At this point why even try
What hope is there in the sky?
No limits? No chance in hell
Happily ever after becoming hard to tell
My last route bares the most potential
Growth of possibilities is exponential
A love that adds to itself by the hour
Taking your to degrees to the infinite power
Until now I would never haven't given thought
This insane idea, I have truly fought
Never been down this road before
To a point it shakes me to my core
Can be both close and out of reach
Sensitive territory I could breach
Nerves keep my feelings in a cage
The distance between us is age
It's only a number when everyone is old
Not when they're potential stories untold
I may not be the thing for her
Maybe not for me either but I wonder
I barely have any words for this
That could be a complete shot and miss
I mean if both parties are able and willing
Why not got with how you're feeling
Then the voices choose to disappear
Left with just me, alone here
Life hits me hard, in perfect stance
That true love thing, I never had a chance
Without any paths, what is there to do
Maybe move in with the lady in the shoe
Nurse my rhymes, everything is fairy tale
Wiping my cold tears, hit the ground like hail
What is love!?, it only hurt me
How many fish are truly in the sea
If none of them are the one
Everything you work for is undone
I sit and run possibilities in my head
Slowly killing me, how am I not dead
Dreams and fantasies stuck on replay
Hating myself, I begin to whither away
Slowly being still and stagnant
My heart is a fragment
Angry with myself, hand in a fist
Torturing my soul over things that'll never exist
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