The tension

Enclosed Mind

Stand Ovation

Times where you find yourself in absolute stillness... In an empty room minding your own business... Starting to seek a higher power even though you're not religious... You find yourself on bended knees asking for forgiveness... In situations that you thought were right or wrong you take a swig of the Guinness... Thoughts have overpowered your mind not seeing clearly through the thickness... Cold lost tears escape through your sobbing mouth you can taste the bitterness... As the curtains come to a close for those who came to witness...Presenting your last show as part of your service...

Motion

Love to do this move called a dance...No matter who is near me in any circumstance...When I get up and move my body...I get those moving next to me not even getting sloppy...Start grooving next to the disc jockey...Where his beats flow through his speakers and into my sneakers....I start checking out the crowd for keepers....Though no one to take home just checking out the good features....Of those that could possibly rule my body like leaders....The ones with the smooth skin wearing wife beaters....Smell good and love to move their bodies to dreamers....Who can show me they are true eaters and feeders....Not cheaters or breeders that only lean toward repeaters...Lets sway making the music in our body be heard for meters...The sweat let loose and fil up liters....

Written to heal

To speak to you is as difficult as pulling out a needle from a haystack...I rather climb to the highest moutain jumpoff release the pain you give me like a heart attack...Not looking back for one second as all our memories pass me by like flashcards without no trace...Sadness is written all over me I am in full disgrace....How can pain in the heart be caused by someone you thought was in love the same...I hang my thoughts in total sadness and shame....Wish I could go back to the days were we smiled and laughed....Those days are gone as you are by my side daily but I in reality you are not there lately....Im sad...

In the moment

Just the other day you said you wouldn't think twice if you left....That my feeling towards you wouldn't matter I had to digest...Those words made tears stream out my face telling me the truth...Why do I stay in this relationship with this pain I never endured as a youth...You said that as if you were ready to leave....Set out on a new adventure to departure while I am left behind to grieve...If you'd asked me if I am happy, I would probably lie and say yes. But only in my car rides alone at night I scream and cry in distress...Come home like nothing is wrong, while in my head I am playing our sad song....The one where I dance alone and my heart has become bloodstone.

Anymore

Trying to escape and hide into the closet

Emotions emerge from everywhere even out my pockets

Not even eating a box of chocolates

The pain will remain like a hobbit

Dont even reach for my wallet 

My cause my tears to burn my sockets

This pain needs to board a rocket

Battle it out with the number one prophet

Have the prophet turn this pain into a composite

Where I don't feel anymore like I want to vomit

All I want is my emotions to feel solid not squalid 

These emotions got me chewing on pills like olives

If I eat them all will I get a profit

Or will my life just turn into a AA meeting topic

Racing

That morning as I stepped out the house

Caught myself in my reflection, I noticed my blouse

Reminisced on the other night wish I could call you my spouse...

I know you are sneaky and roam around like a mouse

Got me feeling like I am brand new in the world about to sprout

Your image appears everywhere unannounced

Thoughts of you as I lay in bed, mind needs to take new routes

A smile appears because of you

You always pop up out the blue

You drench away my droughts

Neighbors hear my shouts

The bed levates with every bounce

Your hands start to browse 

My body temple is yours in all accounts

You got my mind racing and pacing like I am doing headcounts

Doing mathematics in my head without placing discounts

Every motion you make I dont want to miscount

How you make me feel lighter than an ounce

Clean...

Chapters

If anyone opened my book to the chapters pain and suffering

It contains different topics that won't be comforting

Some of the chapters in my book may seem to have you wondering

While other chapters in my book will have you taking out your crayons and start coloring

Some of the chapters will appear to have different colors and shades

Have you playing in your mind a game of charades or spades

In one hand holding a grenade

While the other hand is busy with a rusty blade

Every crazy thought has an out of state plate

My face may even appear through out a chapter titled eight

Now let me tell you one thing by being honest, sincere and straight

These stories in these chapters are all about my heavy weight

Not the one I carry in my body put the pain I create

At the end of each chapter the stories all combine

Every dotted line when magnified  ...

Escaping Words

Why...

Oh why must you get so upset.

The ane anger inside you takes off like a turbo jet

Makes me consume my feelings into debt

Even your stares make my silhouettes sweat

The way you put me down with every letter in the alphabet

Your evil words that escape faster than searching through today's internet

One thing is sad and it's that I do not play the clarinet

As where I can play a tune of my pain and record it on a audio cassette

My pain I rather endure by getting eaten alive by hungry mosquitos hiding under a net

Than to hear you evil words intoxicate me like a cigarette or even like our current president.

Coffee

In that cup, in that mug

Injects the veins like a plug

If drank no sugar straight black

It's like getting a smack with crack

Taking it with half and half

May have you talking about your weekend like a paragraph

Have your co workers asking for an autograph

Demonstrating the latest choreograph