Set on a Vision Set on a vision I dreamed of. Though I struggled to make them believe. Craving a clean cut division. A sudden, sharp need to leave. Guilt on my mind, left my family to grieve. But I had new matters I had to achieve. Hurdles and obstacles ready to bop and weave. Foot on the gas with the pedal down low, I stepped and I fled, left the past at the door. System on blast just to drown out the care. Lost in the rush of the mid night air. Catching sunrises peek where it rises. In awe of the mountains of different sizes. Scenic views blurred as I crossed every state. While my heavy weight started to evaporate. Solo in the quiet, accepting my fate. New adventures to plot, dead set to be great. Like Bert without Ernie... Navigating the stretches of a long, lonely tour. See, all along, it was my decision?! The landscape shifted, and so did the crowd. Shadows too dark to be spoken aloud. Creeping in slow motion from the corners of night. Empty dead eyes with no lingering light. They begged fo... |
Thoughts Part I broke down earlier today
Tears escaping the sadness it had to portray
Pain I had to release
Needed my mind to feel at peace
No one noticed as my head was low
The tears and sniffles I couldn't control
My mind was the center of the show.
Thoughts streaming like flashing news
Couldn't select the topic to amuse
As there were too many to choose
These are thoughts, though I can not refuse.
Siting still and weeping in my lonely corner I couldn't put the thoughts in order My mind was still the main performer. |
Family Boundaries Family Boundaries
Invade your space
My whole life they want to retrace
Without a pencil or pen
Harsh words at a slow pace
Old patterns must be broken
Distress words spoken
Instead of support they rain on my parade
Try to instill fear in me to feel afraid
Now I doubt all my decisions with all they've displayed
Family Boundaries seems like I've been surveyed
In this closed knit intervention only to be played
My thoughts and ideas are left lost in the shade
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Make it right Right now I'm the new talk of the town
Don't know if it's because I am a caramel complexion or light-skinned brown
Nonetheless don't care what they say I am an afro, Latina.
This grill on my face every day appears meaner.
Guards up set solid with high vibes and strong demeanor
Got my eyes on the lady with the luscious lips to get in between her.
Having her whisper-sweet elegance in my ear sounds like a silent purr
No backseat of my jeep lady to swing episode have my chauffeur
Folks always going to speak about you in ebonics when they don't know your politics.
Throw your name in the mix
I dodge their words shooting bricks and sticks to cause conflicts keeping my name out of their lips
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Mind Trap Thoughts in my mind roam around like stray cats under street lamps... Purring their way into my mind like black cats hypnotizing the hungry vamps... Dry mouth tries to speak on these thoughts, instead I find myself shooting blanks... Silent films where emotions are expressed loudly with actions but the pain in the heart feels like its been stabbed multiple times with homemade shanks... Writing instrument at my tips to leave thoughts imprinted on paper like time stamps... Every collapsing thought crumbles into a relapse... To track where my thoughts crack with endless gaps... I fall into traps the mind plays even trying to escape with road maps... |
New Days Mental health be fought daily is serious
Days go by so well then i begin to feel delirious
Pray to God for guidance in angles I become furious
Not getting answers from up above I'm loosing control of this
Do I sound ridiculous?
How do these feelings emerge from one day to the next
Start reaching out to loved ones for guidance my phones is filled up with text.
No one understands whats the cause and effect
How thoughts appear to multiple in my mind like a pop up test
Only hope for the best
Continue to pray daily to release this pain out my chest. |
How to heal Is there something to calm the trauma of an inner child...
As adults we live our life trying to hide behind a smile.
Different chapters in our life get put away into a file.
But the drama and pain continue to pile.
You seek help here and there through meditation written thoughts and even and even people that care.
Still in the end your mind continues to roll in a snowball effect creating despair.
Sometimes I feel like giving up not caring who I hurt while hold this empty cup.
A cup that shows me my blank reflection.
All because my heart needs true affection.
Is there True or False affection?
Or is it that the heart just shuts itself down and wants to hide forever in protection.
All I ever want to do is feel a quote un-quote connection.
So my tears can dry up and my facial expression can turn in a positive direction.
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American Dream The media makes every easily amused person fall into ridiculous.
Lazy Americans stay at home waiting on their stimulus.
Checks getting printed as the ink gets tinted and couch potatoes get their mind twisted.
Passing help wanted signs on their way home seems limitless.
Live day by present day to future waiting on their success.
Complain to family and friends on their daily stress.
The American Dream as outside countries live on a guess.
Ready to put their interest like lighting a cigarette.
Why do some of us express so heavily each day to be blessed.
As others turn to a quest by hitting the streets for different reasons to protest.
Life as we know it keeps getting depressed.
Positivity is in a few of us that stay on the spiritual a quest.
Challenges are thrown like a pop quiz before drowning into the big test.
Either stand still or head east or west and begin your progress. |
Now Seeking I stay awake
Legs dont stop the shake
Heartaches Venting like earth quakes
The heart feels the stake
I stay awake and try to fake
Waiting for day to break
Slamming on my worn out brakes
Learning from all my mistakes
Instead of wisecracks, giving wise takes
Taking the time, for our hearts to heal & wake
Life's a gamble, its all a risk, yet we dare tempt fate
Life's never ending path, travels better with a life mate |
Tangled thoughts To fight to race to beat your mind and it's wild thoughts
Is like feeling like your mind has been double crossed
With events that appear out of nowhere without any caution signs
You feel like your life is nearing it last line
But when something isn't enough as the sound of windchimes
Noises in your mind that sound like crystalized enzymes
When you want the world to stop for a quick briefing
While you try to gather life an its entirity while your weeping
Your mind is at a pace that sleep has become displeasing
The eyes you used to close to rest are now weeping
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