Our First

Can it believe

Unhappiness is real to feel not the real deal

 When everyone around me is so negative

All my thoughts become selective

Happy moments wash up like the sand left behind in the desert with no rain 

You always seem to keep my heart in pain

Dont know why I keep myself so strong in my mind

Taking constant jabs from you all of the time

When I see how I am treated

With actions that are repeated

Love is only shown in the beginning of a different season

While my love is shown to you with every reason

My heart will never stop believing

Not even

This shouldn't be about romance

It should be about when is  the final chance

The one I do not think of when we dance

Where people in the room separate themselves from us

Not knowing of our hidden secrets and mistrust

Where did our love go?

The pain just grows and the heart feels like it's about to blow

But this is one very sad show

Tears want to escape from this equally

But they can not flow so easily

Daily the pain grows with great frequency

What have you done to me?

Where I put myself aside only you

What happened to my life

I need to sit down and do a review

It hurts but I know you do not care

Everynight I shut my eyes I say a prayer

Hoping life guides me 

Eliminates what is not for me

The pain is more than a ton

Feelings from you there are none

Our First

This is the true story of my life 

I met a woman who had a child made her my wife

Entering their lives was unexpectedly

 Our chemistry was not based on math it was love heavily

Though we had to hide our relationship through celebrations, birthdays, and holidays

Not a single day went by where we didn't enjoy our life like riding on sleighs

Snowflakes have fallen with different microscopic designs

But the way we hid our relationship was like presents under a tree

Until that special day we decided to become public

Its a relationship our families were waiting to publish

Carried it around like loaded luggage never unopened.

Our love we celebrate like a one of a kind token

Even though our families spoke their ignorance

We didn't care if they didn't accept the difference

Our first Christmas together we invited everyone over and decorated our...