Slightly Insane

Mr. Urkle.

now i puff up on this urkle
like it kills me to be sober
i cant think of it as over
my obsession, im a smoker
time to losen up my vibe
so my flow can steady rhyme
and you simples go and try
fail and then cry asks yourselves why?
cuz im fly!
let me tell u this much
my flow and my poetry glow
will float ourselves up to the sun
or at least just go far
i always dreampt of living large
still my life ive had to settle
hush down and you look better
always in the ghetto
but never too involved,
kept my distance from the violence
just observed all that i saw
kept my mind at awe
listening to stories,
all them allegories
and the testimonies
damn good times with all my homies
but thats a different story
get sidetracked cuz im girly
sometimes could get a bit flirty
but i tend to be reserved,
...

Slightly Insane

I'm stuck in a jittery mold, out of control
While my nervous tension starts to unfold,
Nobody knows where it sticks, like a tick in the midst of things
When it starts to split vertical, and it bleeds indigo,
So now here we go.
Racing the clock and its tick to find the next fix
Before the timer goes off with the ring and the ding
And the ringing sinks
Amplifies deep in my brain as I make way to my bed
To gain my break, my rest
Start count on the breaths in my chest
Before I forget to take in the next
And the oxygen then penetrates my lightheadedness
The toxic waste still runs through my veins
But in vain I wait
Slightly insane
Since I last tried to numb this pain
Couldn’t take away the strain
So I drained the paint off the image
In plain sight diminished
Illusions crowd the distinction of being ok
Or about to break apart,...

Discovery

I Discovered a new truth to life: 

Although one may not impact us grately, we might have the opposite effect on them.  Nobody ever leaves, as we never and truely depart from eachother's lives.  Memories hold the ties that keep us wanting to continue the friendship, look back to those days that seem now so precious and though physically we may not be connected theres a mental pull that keeps us correlated, always drifting in similar directions.  The energies we release to eachother, the universe and beyond... must one day be met if we continue to hold on.