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As I walk into the next 24 hours, my mind devours the moment as I envision this vision.
The amity plus benefits.
My infatuation was your fathomless affection.
Immeasurable. Illimitable.
I derived pleasure from your libido but I desired your delighted spirit.
Mama said to keep those legs closed until we wed in Holy Matrimony, derived from her testimony; which was me.
But for you,
I pried my legs open because
for you,
I pried my heart open and let my love leak.
These days, society thinks that sex is just an action when the bodies are intertwined but they remain romantically numb.
Anesthetizing the feeling but going with the movement.
Not the movement of our emotions but the movement of this magnetism.
Our bodies going with the rhythm of these moans that bounce off these four walls that makes the moment emphatic.
But while in the midst of this whirlwind, I love you...
So it's not just some emotionless motion for me.
And no, you're not my husband but it's close to being something.
But mama would say "There should be no but in this statement. Before you twist your lips up and excuse your confused conscience, there should be a period before the beginning of 'but'."
But I dream of harmony and unity that navigates within me. Within us.
But it gets discouraging...worrying if you're even going to hit me up when I'm done giving it up.
And I dont half step when we dance in between the sheets. I give it my all while giving you my all.
These petite curves loops around your body while you leave me embodied.
Eyes glistening, light gold hazel vision that digs deep through my soul as you go deep until it reaches my soul.
And since I'm in love with you, this isn't just sex.
Sex. Which is simply intercourse between man and woman.
But baby, I dont just want what swings between your legs, I want what flourishes through your heart.
I don't just want the thrust that exerts from your sculptured torso.
I want the love force that's pushed from your mind, the words whispered to me that dance between your lips.
This is what I dream.
I envision a better us better with my eyes closed.
So sometimes, I pray that I stay asleep. With you behind me as you kiss my neck softly and pull me closer.
I whisper, please don't lose grip.
...I slowly open my eyes.
and let the tears drip.
