The Real Him

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You'd never know from first glance, the demons they deal with. The pain and hurt they feel. You'll never hear their screams or cries for help. 

They'll smile in your face and tell  you everything is alright. All while, hiding their own thoughts and feelings in the darkness of their hearts. 

Like a child, too shy to speak up. They remain silent but, if you attempt to listen; you may just hear their whispers. Things like "help" and "I'm afraid" and from this comes a type of rage, like a hell on wheels. But, even their rage will remain quiet and still like calm waters under the night sky.

Who could they be in this day and age, you might ask. They're your neighbors, family and some are even our friends. Too in fear of those of us who may judge them so blindly. As, if we're incapable of doing any wrong. So bold and naïve some of us are. But,...

I'm a Human Being

I'm a human being.

I've made a great deal of mistakes in my life so far and I'm sure there are more to come.

But, don't forget I'm only a human being.

Just like you, I wasn't made perfect, I have blemishes and flaws.

I'm a Human Being.

I have no idea what my future holds, just the stories of success I've been told

but, among other things I've always been told "You're only human"

"You can't do it all"

"You'll fail"

"You're going to fall"

"You should quit"

But, these things have only been my motivation over the years.

Because although I'm only a Human Being I was also told

I'M MORE THAN A CONQUEROR!!!

So, yes, I am a Human Being but, never be mistaken I'm also a fighter and a dreamer.

And my Bible tells me "I can do a...

His Story

As he looked into the clear blue sky

Wishing he could grow wings and fly away with the doves above him

He remembers just how much, he despises his current reality 

But, knows he must deal with the pains of the world to survive, just like his mother said.

He can't make it off his dreams and great personality alone; no, not in this world he's come to call his home.

Yeah, that's his mentality 

He never asked for this life.

He's always prayed for something more

Like that of a family man with kids and a wife

But, has come to only know that of dull life

Filled with misery

Causing him to be filled with hate and anger Even to the extent of cursing his family tree.

Screaming out,"GOD WHY ME?"

No answer, just silence as usual

Finally laying his head to rest

Just to wake up to nothing more and to nothing les...

NOTE TO MY SOULMATE

A real Friend

 THEY'RE HARD TO COME BY BUT THEY ARE OUT THERE...
THEY CAN'T BE CREATED, MADE OR EVEN BOUGHT BUT THEY MUST BE EARNED...FROM WHAT I'VE BEEN TAUGHT
GROWING UP I DIDN'T HAVE MANY BUT AS I GOT OLDER I LEARNED THAT I DIDN'T NEED A LOT... SOME AREN'T MENT TO BE IN YOUR LIFE BECAUSE ALL SOME WILL DO IS CAUSE YOU NOTHING BUT STRESS, PAIN, MISERY, & STRIFE... THERE ARE THOSE WHO ARE LIKE LEAVES OR EVEN BRANCHES ON A TREE BUT THEN THERE ARE A FEW LIKE ME WHO ARE LIKE THE STRONG ROOTS OF THAT SAME TREE...
STANDING BY YOUR SIDE THROUGH THE SUNSHINE & RAIN, BEING THERE TO LEND A HAND WHEN THEY CAN, ALWAYS HELPING IN SOME WAY OR STYLE TO SEE YOU SMILE OR SIMPLY CALLING TO SAY "HELLO" OR "HOW ARE YOU" JUST BECAUSE...THEY HAVE A LOVE FOR YOU
YOU KNOW YOU HAVE ONE WHEN THEY GET UPSET WITH YOU FOR NOT ASKING THEM A LITTLE OR SIMPLE FAVOR... YOU KNOW YOU HAVE ONE WHEN THEY DON'T TALK TO YOU FOR SO LONG BUT WHEN THEY SEE YOU AGAIN IT'S AS IF YOU NEVER LOST C...

What Do They Really Want

 What Do They Really Want?
It’s a question that puzzles & taunts my mind
On one hand they say they want a hardworking, Respectable, & Mature man;
You know someone they can actually rely on and trust
But I’ve come to learn that they say one thing but actually seem to want the opposite
Of what they really mean; at times instead of choosing
Someone who shines like a burning star in the night sky;
They seem to want someone who crumbles, rusts, & allows time to simply pass them by…
I really wonder from time to time
What Do They Really Want?
Do they want good?
Do they want bad?
Do they want Faithful?
Do they want Cheater?
Do they want Real?
Do they want Fake?
Do they want respect?
Do they want Either?
Are they confused?
Are they afraid?
Do they care?
I mean I swear these are just a few thoughts that go...

The Real Him

 People look at HIM and wonder WHY a young man is so happy...

YOU SEE 4 those who ask HIM that question HE can tell they don’t SEE THE REAL HIM...

They don't take a real good look at HIS brown eyes and see the sorrow or tears HE holds back...

They don't try 2 feel HIS pain from the enemies attack; YOU SEE, they don't see the scars on HIS back...

All they truly see is a nice young man with a smile and a bright plan 4 his future...

Some people say HE'S a bright young man and others say HE'S a mature young man with a testimony...

THE REAL HIM seems 2 only be noticed by HIS real friends...

HE has been hurt by family, HE has been homeless, HE has been talked about, and at times HE'S felt as if HE was going through a fiery hell...

But HE knows and believes that GOD will get HIM over and out of any trail or tribulation...

You might wonder if you even know THE REAL HIM at the end of this poem...

W...

Am I Wrong

 Am I wrong for how I feel about the situation?
I mean I believe it’s understandable how I feel…
Feeling hurt beyond all means, dealing with the pain of a broken heart, and then you wanting to still speak to me of all THINGS!

Am I wrong for how I speak to you now?
With such dullness, sarcasm, and without a kiss
Calling you by your first name, not saying I love you with enthusiasm, and speaking my mind as I wish…
Tell me honestly Am I Wrong?

Am I wrong for all that I’ve done?
Be there to support, encourage, restore, and to wipe your tears away
Was I wrong for being the good man that I am?
Being faithful, honest, caring, and mature…
It may be that I was just wrong about everything
Can you answer these questions that constantly go through my mind day to day?

Am I wrong for believing that there is another?
Seeing as this situation came completely b...