back track

back track

it's been about a year and some pocket change since i've seen your face and i admit, it's been a minute since i've felt this feeling..

i'm not sure how to act. i remember you hurting me but seeing you made me happy. i'm glad that we can finally put our past on the side tracks but it already feels like i'm back tracking..starting to want that old thing back.

i guess all of this distance between us made me miss the love between us.

just getting nervous but i'm not sure why..

conversations on catching up while still giving me the side eye, like i know what's up.

what's f*cked up is that we could have been but you weren't ready for me until you lost me.

and now that i'm sitting here in front of you, the only thing that i want to do is kiss and hold you. tell you how much i've missed you and do all the things we used to do.

i start to get a hot flash while bac...

i love you, Zion.

My heaven designated for me.

You are my destination.

My definition.

You are love.

My love.

I carry you while climbing up my mountain of sorrows.

Blood on the sheets, like a crime scene.

Then and there I knew, I needed you.

I walk towards the ambulance as the blood follows me.

Neema is on the side of me.

"Baby, you'll be alright"

Then the doctor is on the side of me.

"Your baby is alright"

Alright.

My belly is big but my problems are bigger.

Salt disguised as sugar.

Led on to believe he was the one for me.

Thought it would be forever be you, him and me.

A unit was what I seen.

What I believed.

Until he put his hands on me.

Until "b**tch"; was changed to my contact name.

Is this what love is now?

Because it wasn't like this in the beginning.

Feeling like Eve.<...