I've tried hard
to look back
at our time together
we never really
had time together
we had sex together
I was a good pleaser
never known
for really being a believer
in anything
but myself...
and you...
you fell victim
to what you thought
was praise and worship
whenever
I was on my knees
I hate to be the one
to tell you this
but making you think
that we both
fell in love simultaneously
was the greatest joke
that I could come up with
and yes...
you will...
you will resent me
like I resent
the holes and bumps
on my thighs and stomach
that were the evidence
of a product
I can only now
hide with secrets
and step father's
and yes...
I've said this before
I've tried hard
to look back
at our time together
we never really
had time together
we had sex together
-thembekile Kilay deh'poet Tsaoane
Kilay
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