Lost battered and broken all because I wanted to be his trophy.
Begging him to love me and he didn't even know me.
It never stopped just kept getting worse.
Tried to leave but the rules of the game taught me to keep my purse first.
I dealt with it long as the money was right.
Money started slowing down and I saw my pride take flight.
But I ain't never had nothing till he showed me how to get paid.
Handled my business straight from the gate, came up with ways on how NOT to get laid.
I'm the one to blame, but I was just a little girl those choices had to be made.
I was just a little girl when I started to sell my soul.
All because I wanted to be different and experience the world.
See when the devil wants you he'll do anything to succeed.
Something close to beating me lifeless, all because I wanted to do a "good deed".
I was looking for love and thought he could provide it to me.
So I started playing by his rules now I'm stuck begging him to set me free and let me be.
Paid attention to the innocence in my face I knew he couldn't snatch that from me.
I was just a little girl mama never came home used to leave me all alone.
I fell to my knees, prayed for a way, hoped for better days.
I know there's another alternative cuz I'm scared of what might happen if I don't do what he say.
I came from nothing and wanting too much of something will drive you insane.
I just wanted love, loyalty, respect, and a little appreciation.
Kept looking couldn't find it now I'm stuck somewhere in an unknown location.
Do you get what I mean? Nothing is like it seems.
Still go get it by any means.
I had to practice on my brain so I could get a little change.
And "I don't wanna hear no such thing about how I'm out of your price range."
They told me it was levels to this and i didn't really understand.
Took me by the hand and showed me how to get these bands.
At the age of 22 I can explain why I'm a survivor, how all these tragic things ment to destroy me only made me reach higher.
I got a real gift I can feel death when it comes real near and birth by looking through your tears.
The night Heidi got killed I had just called her to chill, she never answered her phone.
Come to find out she grew wings and flew home.
Same thing with Big Sid my brothers lost their lid.
My brothers ain't been the same way since.
I wish I was making this up, had real big plans so wasn't no holding me up.
I stayed on the go had to get it the only way I know.
Judge me all you want but you ain't gon ever feel me if you ain't never felt so low.
I stay to myself, secure the bag, leave them wondering how did I grow.
Kept my head high and kept the dreams in my eyes never told them what was wrong.
Just now exposing how I stayed on the highway chasing it his way, my head was really gone.
I was just a little girl when i learned be real, be still and chill they don't know what's really going on....
