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"Double edged sword
My hands holds it lightly
Slightly confused at how much she likes me
Kisses me in private
But in public feels compelled to spite me
We take dozens of pictures
But than chooses to hide thee'
I rather not take them sometimes
I no longer see the point
Her spirit battles with needing the truth
She's scared sleeping with me
Will ruin her for good
But then on a good day she's ready to marry me
Spending eternity basking in our mix
But she won't put a couples profile pic
Stating I don't need them in my business and
Damn forget the fact it would make my day
Couldn't grant the small wish for our anniversary
Gotta grow thick skin for her and me
I show dozens of ways how captured I am by she
It just sucks sometimes she's embarrassed by me
Honesty about her comfortability she chooses to keep it
Sooo periodically I feel like her dirty little secret
But then she lures me in with a hug and a kiss
Im instantly moved by her sensual bliss
Promises of change and finding the truth she needs
My hearts pounding at exhilarating speeds
Hoping when she is praying down on her knees
The day shall never come when the Lord
Will ask her to leave me
My eggs are in her basket
I feel as if im holding my breath
With all the odds against me
Im literally loving her to death
I just want her to be free with her love
So we can love genuinely
I know she wants the Lords blessing
So honorably she can love me
Lord I pray that your Will be done
I hope it includes her and me
And this is difficult and it gets soo deep
Her and I just won't be affected
As she has kids
So this "lifestyle" Affects more the us
Children's future is in our trust
So unfortunately we can't be intimate
Like the typical couple
Years later we still hide just to greet eachother
Spoken silence between our eye contact
Rushing to the room to greet u properly
Silently sad
Want what "straight" couples and family's have
Should so much energy go into hiding what's real
They should change their dance to fit our beat
Especially when we love unconditionally
If God is love
And love is love
Then there is nothing wrong with eve and eve
So ill be strong for us both
And give my partner the patience she needs
but only long enough which is comfortable for me
shout out to the those who know what they want
your gotta be real with yourself, no future when you front
dont have to tell you how that story ended
lets just say no more applications given to those transitioning
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