Behind the Smile

Thinking out loud

Don't know what I'm in search to find

so I'll just say what's on my mind

my cup runneth over so I'll spill it just how it came to me

I've got to get these thoughts out before the consumption strangles me

it's strange to me

how I continue to repeat the same life cycles

every time trying to do it differently but end up with the same outcome

it's tiresome and my sons

surely only see a failure

all these years that flyby and still can't ever get it together.

Contradiction speaks when I tell them you can be anything you want to be <...

Got love for my Vibers

Silence is the platform for the mind of a poet. Where your words collaborate with the pen that condemns the paper to contain the story, what written Glory. It's an honor to be amongst so many Vibers, who knew the World held so many writers. For every title I click on there sets a stage. All your stories unfold as if I sat in a play. To display that of which your mind can't erase. I taste that of a salty tear. I can mourn the loss of someone you loved so dear. Congratulations, a toast to all your celebratory engagements. Eyes and ears open to those who initiate change for the Nations. We live for the write, that which ignites all that needs to be expressed. All-consuming passion that leaves us with little rest. It's for the best for they should fear the alternative of a poet that can not write. Take cover or take flight. For within a beast will rise but no matter where you go you will always find Our Kind. So let's continue to write, not in the spirit of competition. For we should...

On Track

Nowhere left to go but up

your come up

on the horizon

so many haters despising

soon-to-be jaw dropped with awe

your stardom calls

slapped with regret

I bet

now they're thinking twice

uno dos Thrice

Idiots!

how do you like me now you say

I knew one day

God would raise me up in front of my enemies

now you'll...

Ball hogger

Just this one time why couldn't you let me have my moment? You're so selfish! I never complain because I don't want to be negative. I just keep everything inside. You must have known? Surely you must have known! To be this angry and want to talk about it, I must have really needed to vent But once again just like every single time we speak, it's all about you!

Flawful

You don't have to go very far to find something real, if you're looking for someone special. Time and energy can be wasted on the wrong person if you're not careful. You said I just want someone to love me for me, my imperfections, flaws, and all. But do you? Don't ask someone to love you if you don't. Let me tell you what I found to be true. I've spent a lot of time out in the world with my eyes but I could not see. The realest thing I've ever been able to find was how real I could be with me. I'm impatient, hard-headed, stubborn, and I always think I'm right. And when it comes down to anybody I love I stand, defend, and FIGHT! I love to cook freely it makes me pretty happy but I hate it when I feel like I have to. Because I don't feel like it's just the woman's role to cook and clean, we should be able to do what we want to. it's hard raising kids, they drive me insane. I'm not afraid to admit I need help. But it's only me so i yell and i scream and I occasionally give them the...

Plagiarism

Why would I show you my scars just for you to cut them reopen

you're supposed to be my safe place, the one who makes me forget that im broken

but it turns out you're even worse than the original creators

for I was hurt by many over the years now your a** is added to the list of perpetrators

piercing scarred tissue is not coincidental it's a 100% intentional

but it's okay, by the time I'm done with you your actions will be a 100% regrettable

not a single sign of remorse from you, everything about you is a lie

you sought out my pain cuz you indulging in others damage then try to break me to the point where I wanted to die

obviously you have done this before wth have you made this yo...

May I

If there's no expectations, theres no disappointments and no let downs

When I lay down to rest I know that I'll sleep sound

if there's no expectations I'm not holding my breath or getting my hopes up

just for the excitement to crash and burn and then I'm down in the dumps

I have no more patience for all the counterfeit clowns

that like to parade around

and act like they s*** renown

when in reality they scary and be the first to skip town

always talking meaningless garbage cuz their word is not there bond

And when it comes time to remind them they don't know how to cor...

So many choices

This lady keeps talking

she just won't shut up

keeps going on and on

about who knows what

I'm really not listening

but I'm getting pretty irritated

cuz she's steady bumping her gums

when I just want to smoke my cigarette

I'm sorry for whatever happened to you

I insist you get a shrink

yet you're still out here talking to me

but it looks like I'm asleep

cuz you can't even see me blink ...

Undress My Mind

 You're exactly what I need to cure this imbalance

as it relates to not having anyone to share perspicacious conversation.

Your Intelligence astounds me, excuse my exhilaration.

Let's have a moment, can you get out and run away with me?

I know you feel it too so let's indulge in this chemistry.

To intimately entangle our minds both knowingly

that once we get started it could be uncontrollably

intoxicating because I want you to challenge me intellectually.

we can do this for hours and hours perpetually.

I crave philosophical and psychological discussions.

Let my mental Juices Flow until I start having convulsions.

Then I'll guide you to Steinbeck and Socrates specifically

until you've reached your peak of intellectual capacity.

Behind the Smile

No one ever bothers to ask me if I'm okay.

 My life is an open book but if you don't ask the questions then I'll never say

the things that I've been through, the things that I'm going through, how many times I've cried myself to sleep.

If I had a million pages I could write several books because my pain runs just that deep.

What a beautiful woman, with beautiful children, with a smile that could light up any room.

With a contagious laugh, and such a caring Spirit, her Ora is as bright as the moon.

She wakes up every morning and dresses herself as if she is on a mission.

Because looking like what I've been through is not even a decision.

Oh what a draining talent I have, the energy it takes to hide the pain inside.

I am a broken woman, filled with disappointments, and countless tears have I cried.

If I told you my childhood what would you say? if I told you my ...