I can't unlove because I am
Impatient, selfish.
I love as if I cannot be hurt.
Going on as if nothing is wrong.
I cannot unlove because I know not how.
I spend my nights awake dreaming of how everything should have been.
The speeches I have amongst myself
Lost in complete darkness.
Accepting the sound of my voice as an I told you so.
Seeking a dream that seems so far away.
I can't unlove because I accept disappointment.
The contempt of putting others first without fear.
I truly believe I cannot unlove because I am in love.
Young again in thought running wild, free.
I consider it a perk.
Being the only other person I know how to be.
No longer embarrassed of facing the opposite end of the mirror.
Finding that the most important things bring the most smiles.
I am far from perfect
But I cannot unlove as if I made some sort of mistake.
Purposely mistaking myself as a fool
Kewayne Wadley
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SunburntShe sprawled out across the sky, bored, Perfectly sun-kissed. From a distance she could fit In my hands. Day, the name we hold dearest Day, the name of the memory I placed her above all else. I too, lay sprawled out, beneath her. The intensity of how she makes me feel, A region I know well, sweltered & swollen, Without walls or halls to contain the effect she has on me. She took my hand & gave me the gift of her presence. My heart but a burning bush from this intense percussion, this rapid sensation spreading steadily, rapidly. A giant in my eyes. I've climbed the highest building & collapsed beneath her. Black & wilted, I am the wick without promise of tomorrow |
ExfoliateI'd love to take a shower Filled in your caress. The watery beads of your skin, The soap a scrub that exfoliates the moisture of your lips. The accent of your tongue printed carefully in the latter Without restriction of where to go A well thought reform that enhances comfort Surrounded by tile. Decompressing the aesthetic of comfort I'd love to take a shower In a consensual happening of being warmed by you. Where hygiene is lost in the everlasting well being of sods & the only peak reached is one that subsides when you yourself stop the faucet. Where there is no specific height or obligation to be reached. No unearthly imbalances. Just me covered under you In perfect exfoliation |
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Vinyl RecordTo me her love was more than just "love"
To me
the way she loved was a record.
A sensuous pin in the groove.
when she'd speak
she'd spin around and around.
To me
that was all that mattered.
I danced in her rhythm.
Finding it impossible to deny
what was evident.
In a mere matter of moments
I was enticed.
Tracing the lines of her hands,
I being the pin lost in her melatonin.
Whether in public for all to see.
Or in the intimate moments
shared
between her & I.
I sung her love as my favorite song.
A song forever engraved
as I longed to be the pin
that traced her groove.
A record that always stays with you
No matter how much time has passed |
As Long As You're AwayAs long as you're away
I will continue to look up at the sky
Longing that you'll gravitate back to me.
Even though you're far,
You're never at all that far from me.
For in my deepest thought I am curled up
in the brightest star that I named after you.
No matter how dark the sky I will always find you.
Gazing back upon me, curious as to how we travel so many miles.
In so little time.
Even on the darkest night
I know that you're still there.
Your love the brightest of stars.
As long as you're away
this star is always closer than it appears
No matter how far you are
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Without MilkThe next time we meet,
We will wait until dark
that way we can take the stars & dip them in chocolate
without need for milk.
Our memories becoming this more desirable,
This more delicious.
Just you & I
underneath a chocolate sky.
Counting the stars one by one as we take huge bites.
Lost in our own little world
Just you & I.
Vulnerable to the outside world
without a clue to why
our mouths are covered in chocolate
We'll crunch the stars like the world was ending.
The next time we meet,
We will wait until dark
that way we can take the stars & dip them in chocolate
without need for milk
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