Give and Take

Decent Love

If he loves you,

He would never call you out your name.

If he loves you,

He would respect you and never cheat,

If he loves you,

He would put you first 24/7.

If he loves you, 

The only tears he should make you shed are tears of joy.

If he loves you,

He wouldnt pass you around.

If he loves you,

He wouldnt do any of these things and you would be priority,

if he does .. girl i got news for you.

Dont You Get It?

You stare at me like im a ghost,

You avoid me like a disease.

You ignore me like a breeze,

You laugh at me like im a standup.

You cant except me like a nightmare,

Beat me like a drum set.

Break me like stepped on twigs,

Hurt me like a needle shot.

Leave me like a empty bottle ont the ground,

Betray me like a heartless stranger.

Lied to me like a salesman,

Left like a georgeous sunset.

Leaving me broken like my heart ...

Don't judge me I have problems to

I lost my feeling to cry

I forgot how laughing felt

I can't smile anymore

My hearts turning cold

I can't stay calm

Fall to fast

Believe to quickly

Never free

Always alone

Constant depression

Constant suicide

...

Words can't explain my pain

Actions can't show my hearts hurt

Unable to hold back tears

Walking on abused feet

Speaking the busted lips

Standing on sprained legs

Looking with blackened eyes

Walking with a used body

Holding my heart with disgusting hands

God gave everyone a reason to live

Mines was just one of the most dark.

Mask's Cover Pain

i act happy,

when im sad.

i draw,

when im mad.

i think i have friends,

when they all want me to die.

starring into the meadows,

in the belly of the beast.

hunger growing inside me,

a feeding to leave it all.

no one will care,

i wont even be a memory,

i will just be another one that passed time.

as time swallows,

im consumed by the past.

people made me,

my life destroyed me.

i always put caution on my heart,

emotions are radio active,

wrong mistake can cause problems.

i dig deep for confidence,

but you cant find what was taken.

i lost trust at 3,

respect at 5,

a voice at 8,

confidence at 12,

choices at 12,

myself at 12,

innocence at 13,

life at birth.

i wonder,

will i die by my own hands,

or have the sweet feel of suffering....

Take a Walk In My Shoes

Im consumed by the judgment of others:

friends, family, people ...

why do people torment me with words and actions?

why am i called fake, , hoe, ugly, hated and many others.

people mocking me with the present ,

no idea of my past.

i struggle with death,

because its my answer for all this to stop.

all my life i was put under,

abused, neglected, raped, hurt, lonely, bullied, hated!,

yet people wonder why i have a mask.

because behind that,

that mask,

lies a broken crying little girl.

left behind in the dark,

so long that now she doesn't see light.

no one can walk in my shoes,

you'll be gone by the first foot,

and dead before the first step.

Give and Take

i give you loyaty,

i give you trust,

i give you faith,

i give you love.

i give you my all,

i give you my strengths might.

now,

i give you my heart and soul,

you give me tears at night.

i tell you my story,

you throw my pain and fright.

i look for you in the crowd,

only for you to leave with an empty sound.

i cant begin to think,

because i never did.

my love for you flowed like waves,

wave by tidal wave .. thinking.

worst the storm,

bigger the waves,

my waves of love for you .. grew stronger every day.

no rapid emotions,

no teary eyes,

no more crying,

no more telling lies,

no more shaking in fear,

the time for that ran out.

they get me back at it,

back at it again and again.

mending hearts to be torn down again,

telling myseld lies,

when i know ...