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Why am I consistently lost
Surprisingly okay with where I fall
Why do I consciously watch my phone
Hoping you’d call
Why does the heart want what society refuses to give
Why does it seem like our life span is
Suddenly short lived
Foolishly we’ve all failed
But no one seems to care
We’d rather kill off our kind
Than to collectively make things fair
Black lives matter, white lives matter
Hell everyone matters if you asked me
This is occurring now
But what of the crisis In other countries
With the government, kid soldiers, women being beating to death
Man-kind got me ***ed up if they think Id surrender to them
Corrupted cops, cracked out youth
What the hell have we been become
They speak of dynasties and royals
Egyptian thrones and respect
Where the hell did we go wrong
Why is it so hard to do what moves my soul
Without being plastered with everyone elses expectations
Why cant I just live,
Making peace with the basics
Why is it a problem to love anyone worth deserving
Does my sexual preference leave you bothered
Am I truly the reason youre hurting
Or are you upset with your life
Because of your stupid decisions
Living for everyone else, not even acknowledging youre even living
One thing about it, and itll stay the same
Ive always done what I wanted
And thatll never change
Why does the thought of being with a man frightens me
Nothing sexual, im speaking mentally
This generation so messed up
I mean literally
This wasn’t how we grew up
This s*** came to be
Somewhere along the way
I created a life for me
Dumbfounded once I grew to see
Women and men are one in the same
Same hearts broken differently
Emotionally I aint got it all
Why does love centers my life
Consistently giving my all
Everytime the same outcome
Just a decorated fall
Why are we setup for failure as soon as we exit the womb
How do you expect greatness with red targeting you
Who do we blame for the shortcomings to the minorities
How can I make a difference with no one supporting me
Listening, trying to make sense of the confusion we’re forced to live
How the hell do you expect me to pay when I have nothing to give
Charging me to make a living
Then repay you once I get it
Yeh I hear the consequences and I still aint wit it
Why is it so hard to get these thoughts out
Its like im trapped in my head with no way of getting the truth out
Why cant I just find my one true partner and live in the abyss
Oh yeh, because females aint loyal and most men aint
Product of our society and I aint settling
You on that f** s*** well so am i
Starting to think that’s why im always lifted
Ducked in the skies
I have a problem being told what to do
I don’t take kindly to attitudes
I rather work by myself
Than in large groups
I simply like my space
Nothing to prove
Why am I always in my feelings longing what could’ve been
Like, what if she would’ve made it
Would I still be with him
Was he like that before and our situation gave me hope
Was I in fact apart of some sick joke
And does my girl understand those days were the worst
How id sleep for days, not to acknowledge the hurt
That decision she made affected our history,
Altered our future of what I hope we’d be
Why did I hurt them intentionally, some not so much
Why is it so hard to sincerely trust
These days is just as is, I don’t bother to make sense
Whats the pointing of setting the future, when s*** aint right in the present
I vibed with those who vibe back
Converse with those who speaks my crack
I intend on finding my ever after
Just come to realize it may not be in this chapter
….of my life
