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My younger years in my past calamity
Got me feeling like God was mad at me
Pushing me to the brink of insanity
Making me feel like I should act like the rest of humanity
Stupified
Feeling dumb for the times I’ve cried
The many times I scraped crumbs to eat
Days on the street
Chapped toes on my heels & feet
Pants were torn
Same jeans were worn
I never thought I would get out
Felt like I suffered thermonuclear fell out
Um, “Fall Outâ€
Now I go to tell out
Take paper and write it
Using my pen to take a demon and smite it
I now enjoy putting them in the corner to fight it
I take so much delight in it
I got tired of losing
Now IM gloriously enthusing
My anger was self defeating and positivity defusing
In my mind always a crazy world venture
Lost a few teeth
Thought I needed some dentures
Unshaven and lost
Got me to act brazen like a boss
Took fear and ‘had it’ tossed
Because I internalized my angst
And began to creep like a creep
Treaded high mountains and plateaus that were steep
Some valleys were deep
I had soul searched myself deep
Then arose
A beautiful rose that blossomed
I recognized the hate that made me act dead like a possum
Forget those days
Forget those bad ways
Forget hovering over good days
Just to hide from the strays
Created a new character
Personality drastically enhanced
Took the devil to dance
Stabbed him three times in his face with a lance
I got myself uplifted
Practiced hard daily
Even if my heart would fail me
I would not allow myself to any longer be stunted
Many times got so aggravated that I hissed and grunted
Too the damn ball and had it punted
Stole some pride from others
Embedded into my DNA
By enslaving my mind to my higher self
By engraving a new name to a better delf
Forget wandering in the wilderness for forty yrs
I grew tired of the pain and tears
Rock bottom
I burned internally
Like Gomorrah and Sodom
Reviewed my past life and envisioned a better one
I had to hold that vision, until I got’em
Took my old me
And I stabbed, choked and shot him
Now who I am this very day
Was designed from a broken heart and lost mind that strayed
With tenacity he prayed without delay
Although my past is so very dark and twisted
There is not an ounce of me that can say that I missed it
Although it caused an internal uproar
To bang on many a door
Switch up the weak man in my core
Create the vision I had
By modifying who I was and adding new elements in my mental store
Became a lyrical beast stepping onto the metaphorical sea shore
Now many people take me and adore
They applaud or whimper
I take verbiage unified with high intellect
Take words of intensity to resurrect
Raise up goodness and motivation
Stir up an insurrection by demonstration
Because my words are lived out by moment to moment illustration
I act what I speak and ONLY speak that which existed or now exists
And I end this thought process of progress
By disclosing that I punch down all enemies with a lyrical fist
That may try to counter attack and persist
From negativity or pity parties
Is that which I formerly resist
Because if it wasn’t for a change of mind and illumination
I wouldn’t be this new man that currently fights to remain consistent
I destroy all negativity with my breath
Annihilate demons and leeches of emotions
Who cause destruction and commotion
BY translating alien texts
For my hieroglyphs uplift
Take your current frequency and shift
Change the station
And I will show you what its like to handle elevation by illumination!
