Lost...

Broken clock

Broken clock why haven’t you changed your time ?

You’re showing me it’s 5 o’clock when it is clearly 2:50am.. That can be confusing and quite frustrating.

I have to fix you!

I’m moving your hands where i want or where I feel they should go... but you’re still not telling the right time. Maybe it’s the battery i can just change that and you should be back to normal right ?

So okay ! I Changed the battery and once again moved the hour hand and minute hand where they should go and still you’re not budging. Your second hand though was slightly jammed i noticed

Now realizing this is an internal job.  How can i fix the inside of you...

I love you broken clock you accented my room so well i keep trying to figure out ways to fix you . I can always keep moving your hands to the correct time but unless you second hands move you won’t change you won’t be fixed you&rsq...

Different ...

It’s 4:30 in the morning and I’m awake while the world is sleeping around me 

The endless thoughts and memories replaying in my mind for the hundredth time. 

I’m constantly talking to myself 

Thinking to myself 

Questioning myself. 

What if i had of tried things this way ?

Or if i had of been this way ?

Wishing things were different ...

Different (giggles)

A word I’ve heard most of my 24 year old life 

I’ve always been told i was “different”

I thought differently 

I acted differently 

Even dressed a little “different “ but of  course my first thought is..

“There’s 7 billion people in this world of course I’m ***ing different “.. i mean isn’t everyone ?

But no my “different” was unique.

Lost...

Why couldn't you be stronger 

Why couldn't last time be the last time..

It took you from you and took control over your mind

Such a beautiful mind Such an amazing soul but there it was again eating at you knowing you couldn't resist 

Then one by one you started losing things and ppl you cared about as if it was some kind of checklist 

Late nights you cried because u want what you once had 

Family ,friends , mental stability...

You cry and you pray ,you cry and you pray 

But .. Again there it was 

And all those emotions you were just feeling went away. You were numb ...

Making people feel dumb because you claimed you were okay 

Look at yourself 

Standing in a room sweating ,when the AC is blowing the coldest air 

Asking once again are you okay ? 

But you just stare ..

You&...

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As I sit on the train , I feel eyes on me or is it the brightly colored balloons floating out of my bag catching their attention ?
Who are they for ? They must be wondering to themselves ... 
Observing the " Get well soon " wording in big bold letters in the front.  Someone she knows must be sick ...
The next stop comes and two white policemen stepped unto the train.. Everyone's eyes left my balloons and began to stare at the policemen.
The train was at its quietest.My balloons caught there attention and they began to walk my way, "who's the balloons for ?" One officer asked.  "For my older brother " I said. "Oh well we'll have to search you for suspicious activity " the other officer said 
"What's suspicious about me sitting here ?!" At this point cameras and cell phones were beginning to get pulled out . My thoughts were everywhere!  Am I about to be the...

Traits

Trait ...
What is the definition of trait ?
Trait is a distinguishing quality or characteristics, typically one belonging to a person...
So with that being said traits can be passed down or picked up on right ?  
However what about the traits you don't want .. What about the traits you have naturally because your mother or father share this particular trait .... Did I mention u despise it ... What should one do ?
Imagine being like someone you absolutely can't stand ...
These traits that you have are ruining  Your friendships ... Your relationships .. They're ruining YOU
Of course you can try and try and try to be someone you're not 
But whom is that helping ? Or is it even helping at all ? 
You want to be understanding you want to be compassionate you would kill to be an open book .. But .. Those traits those unfriendly .. Insensitive unnecessary traits keep up that wall 

Category

Right and Wrong!
What is right and what is wrong?
Right is being in accordance with what is just good or proper.In that case wrong must be the opposite, as in not in accordance with one's needs intent,or expectations.
As quirkily as you say I am, or because I may mess up sometimes doesn't mean I forgot the difference!
Apparently you have!
I intended to play the game and have an attitude, or just be in a bad mood, But as my mother would so nicely say kill him with kindness. I intended to do that too but I chose to kill him with something else and that's intelligence.
The bible says in Proverbs 5:20 ''so why should you my son be in an ecstasy with a strange woman or embrace the bosom of a foreign woman?'' And that makes me think why should you?
That would fall under the category of wrong or the word that you like so much disrespect, but the best word to use for this situation would be cheat which's mea...