What is Love

CATEGORY

life

Alone with my thoughts of you

Of all that we will never be

I see happy couples

Smiling couples

And wonder if they are truly Happy

Or is that just a facade

With you I was happy In the beginning

But the Happiness slowly

Turned to misery followed by Despair

I wonder if I had known In the beginning

That you were not

Who and what you portrayed

Yourself to be

Would I have I imagine

I would have

You had a way that was so very charming Intoxicating

So very captivating

I wonder if thoughts of me

Of us

Ran through your mind In that moment

We completely lost it all It's seems like yesterday we

You and I were happy in fake love

Nothing I did was good enough

Nothing I ever said was right

But you swore you loved me

Forever you said

I don't weep anymore

There is nothing to weep for

Everything I ever wanted

Disappeared slowly like the sun setting and pouring darkness onto my life

Nothing I did was good enough

Nothing I ever said was right

But you swore you loved me

Forever you said

I miss you at times

I won't lie to myself I

do I think of all the times

You made me feel worthless I

think of all the nights

Waiting up for you

Only to fall asleep

And wake to find you still not there

I never thought you could be present in a relationship but not be present

But you showed me that it was possible

I fell for you hard

Now I sit here with scars

I thought I knew what love was

Until I got that first black eye

The push down the stairs

Along I felt like you really cared

The choke hold

The kicks

The bloody lips

I took every lick

Thinking that it was love

I sit alone with my thoughts now

I don't even remember the shots

I wish I could take it all back

But we are both alone now in the dark

©Robin. J 2017