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My Strength
K.Caliber
Today is good day
House clean and good music blarin
Step outside to the sun shinin
All smiles, laughs, screams and bullets rainin
Everything turnin dark, am I dyin
Yup a ***ed up scenario
It was like Cancer begged Karma to send Murder
To go kill'em like lil Terrio
They say when it's your time to go then you go
Right before I leave though just some I gotta know
Will my life lessons still reside within David
Would my work ethic leave him with memories so vivid
Or would he simply be livid that I'm not livin
goin his whole life hatin who ever did it
Shares my character flaw of holding grudges
I still pray God provides him with forgiveness
My strength lies in knowin that I gave him the lessons
To be a better man than I
I can hear everyone callin my name beggin me to breathe
But I question the strength in Keith
I'm here in a pool of my own blood
Slowly dying awkward thoughts
Like I was never good at holdin on to love
Perfect example "Bug"
Gave me everything I wanted
But Disappointment after disappointment Left me disappointed
That my wrongs over shadowed A love so anointed
As I die I find strength in the belief that her knowing my love was true
Was some type of atonement
I fear that my friends will never understand what they meant
When I was jobless and homeless their support was the greatest gift they gotta ever sent
Finding joy in the memories of us enjoying life and drinking til we were passed bent
I apologize to all that were apart my life
I apologize for all of the strife
I apologize for the way Image
Painted an emotionless picture of Keith
I apologize that it took me so
Long to stand up to me for the real Keith
Pissed Image committed suicide
So that old Keith I had to do more than just slide
He also had to die I was armed with the Glock 9
Hit him twice in the head and put 1 to his chest like Derrick
That's how the real me Rose from the concrete
Chill understand this something I gotta speak
See when Image died that left the old Keith with bull fears
That would've done nothing more than resurrect Image
God explained to me why I had to end it
He said
"My , old Keith still has fear
And that's just something I don't condone, ya hear?
His strength resides in his relationship with me so how dare he!!?
How dare he question the strength he has within
I gave my son's life to clear him of every sin
I gave him a father and a step father
He learned how to love and protect from two men
That’s two dads when some don't have one
I gave him a mother who's a solider
Within my army and prays for him so hard her bones ache
I gave him the gift of sight to tell whose intentions are real and those fake
So questioning his own strength is something I won't take
Questioning his strength shows in me he has no faith
And I know that ain't true so the fear that's in him has no place"
So now y'all see why that mission had to be accomplished
The strength within the old Keith was hindered that bull fear non-sense
So now I can breathe God gave me strength through my name
Keith a deeply rooted tree of protection and knowledge
I can finally present to you me, the Real Keith
And through my name I pay all in my life Homage
All I ask is that you all find your strength within
Your name
Stay groovy and be blessed
And I’ll do the same
