Motivation

Motivation

You are my motivation

And I hate it.

I want to fix my life to win you back,

But why does your name in my thoughts make me want to be better?

My mind says you’re toxic.

My heart says I want you.

You’ve made me less focused.

Then again, you’ve made me more focused than ever.

Your presence pushes me.

Your absence pushes me.

An unhealthy desire to keep you,

Drives me to healthy decisions.

I never thought I could connect with someone again,

Until I met you.

Until you left me.

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The Image

The image is burned into my memories.

Anger and hurt mixed with eternal sadness.

It’s madness how our actions cause so much pain.

In the image of you two, all I see is you,

Happy.

The smile that stabbed my heart

And left me to die.

Why couldn’t you smile for me?

Why couldn't I make you happy?

Why couldn't I make myself happy?

I wanted friendship just to make you stay,

Even though you still wanted me

And I couldn't let you go,

But I needed to.

Ice in my mind, but fire in my heart.

The image that put wood in the flames.

You two.

Happy.

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