I think about you even though in flesh you do not exist.
I fear that this world will be a burden to you, and only pain will persist.
I am afraid of the agony that will come your way in your life.
Yes, you will have some joy, but mostly pain and strife.
I don’t want to be greedy, and have you just to say I’m a father.
That is a foolish reason to create, so to myself I say why bother.
If this world had more hope, and better things to offer you.
Then I would consider to bring you into this world
And for me that is a feeling that is new.
I myself am perplexed at what this world does to us all.
It can make you old or your soul rejuvenate, but at the end you still fall.
I don’t mean to be pessimistic, but this life is full of strain.
I do not want you enter into a place where there is mostly heartache and pain.
I ask you to forgive me, for not giving you a chance to live.
But in my heart I truly feel that it’s the best gift I can give.
If there is a higher force, and it brings you into this 3rd. dimensional existence.
I will accept what has been given me and I will offer no resistance.
I just hope that no accidents occur, for that one will be vital.
It will be a wave of agony for all your life, which will be your very title.
A title of life created by the opposite of chance.
Even though for many years, your existence in my mind did prance.
I now end this description of my thoughts on this lettered full page.
And if you become a part of this life, then I hope you are a sage.
So you can be everything that I could never be.
And help develop skills that could change this world’s destiny.
I love you though you are not physically here.
And I want you to know that you are very real in my every crying tear.
SkTzO