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Nearly broke
And about to be a father.
God please respond
As I feel you don’t want to bother.
Money’s running out.
And I’m kind of scared.
I don’t want my child
To think, that I never cared.
Although I know
All along you’ve been within our midst.
Still no full time work
And I can hear Satan’s snicker & hiss.
Feeling full of despair
As I sit here & write this.
I sometimes feel like you don’t care
And hurt me to spite this.
But despite the facts
I know your love is not what lacks.
What am I doing wrong?
‘Cause I feel the burden about to break my back.
I have a wife to take care of
And a child that’s on the way.
No work, and no opportunities
Only power I seem to have is to cry & pray.
But are my prayers even being heard?
Sometimes I feel as if not.
My spirit is weeping
And my soul is disturbed.
I want to start a business
That will bring your name honor & glory.
But it feels it may not happen
Because my goal is not a part of YOUR predetermined story.
Feeling anger, so much fear
And tons of disappointment.
Please father God
Bless me with some spiritual ointment.
I need the blessings
So that I can bless others in your name.
As long as I suffer dishonorable complacency
I will always feel as if I am your shame.
My assumption & hope
For the reason of all my pain
Is so I can testify to your goodness
And bring others to praise your name.
I am not aware
Of what else that I could do.
So I will continue to hope, have faith
And I will still pray to you.
Spiritually hoping that one day soon
You will lift me up on high.
And that my family & I
Will have no more need to cry.
SkTzO
