Mind made up but your body is unsure.. Stuck like a confused animal at a dangerous four way intersection. Conscious wanting one thing but your heart and soul begging for another. Seeming to be trapped between two parallel universes, that's the feeling of uncertainty! The feeling of "what if" or "I should have". Naw not really, it's the feeling of knowing who your heart belongs too but appallingly giving it to someone else! So you remain trapped, a slave to second best.. Day dreaming, obsessing about the one person you know holds the key to your heart and eternal happiness. Seeing them while with your significant other, Feeling their hands caress your body, their lips pressing to yours, their sexual instruments creating those rhythmic intimate tunes.. You wake up and realize that it's just a dream and that your in the present with The runner up, glass half empty! Although its not the life you dreamed of you know it could be worse. You also know it could be better. You breathe deep carrying on your daily routine then slowly suppress the " what if's". Securing them under lock and key.. Yanking the steering wheel of life away from that dangerous 4 way intersection and getting back "on course".
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