Pictures broken , i broke it . Drinking changed my emotions . Im feeling hopeless . They think im crazy . i know it . im frozen . when im tipsy im floating in a city thats golden . when im sober My mind cant breathe , thoughts overloading with unfifilled dreams . im choking . hoping for a oppertunity . im tripping cause im not living . im scared of failure . but im failing me . tears falling as i scream . what about me . everybody moving on . i thought we was a team ! It was us three . now it just me . they use to call me chipmunk . but now ima beast ...
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Im more of a manCries and screams in the middle of the night . Hearing my neighbor abrusing his wife. why ? when she does you right. i know its none of my busneiss . it makes me sick . dudes like you dont deserve a . We should switch . I be the man and you be the b!tch . But see ... you a pu$$y . its a shame . Im more of a man  |
WHAT LOVE DID TO MEI was so captured by your beauty i didnt recongnize how u was treatin me. Blinded by what was and how you use to be. You were pretending , That Girl was never who i pictured myself with. U wasnt bein yourself, You was acting so that person i liked dont exsist , I fell in love with a Myth. And i was Deeply in shock when i found out this was fake. I could deal with Alot of things in life, But this my heart and mind couldnt take. Pain built up anger inside of me. I didnt know how to define me. I was gone hiding nobody couldnt find me. My Eyes stayed red, Cried so much they bled i had ran out of tears to shed. I hated the fact that she let me give her my all! And i had nothing left plain Empty inside. I swear when she hurt me Clarissa Died and Pretty Azz Was born a playa created because i was Extremely Torn. U formed a machine in me now I cant give my all. Im blocked forever unless true love come and Break down this Brick Wall. |
EXCUSE ME , LET ME TESTIFYITS MY TURN TO TESTIFY IM SO SICK OF LIES NO MORE TEARS ARE COMIN FROM THESE EYES I DESPISE IGNORANT B!TCHES..AND BACK STABBERS WHO GIVE THEIR FRIENDS A JUDAS KISS. IM MISSIN OUT ON LIFE BY TRYING TO PLEASE EVERYBODY BUT IMA DO WHAT MAKE ME SMILE AND WHAT FEELS RIGHT. |
Wisdom of OzIm young but im wise my eyes see whats not visible i may not have what them otha n!ggas got but i still got lots of pull. What i do is Unthinkable you couldnt pull it off .. they always claiming to be real but thats just talk people Running they mouth . You talkin but im walkin nothin flaw about me i lead n!ggas to this yellow brick road . truth and honesty. |
Blocked loveYour scared and im scared but i hoping my heart wont get stabbed. im prepared to deal with the affects of u leavin me cold . im trying not to think negative though, i have to think that way . My heart is black . cut up and bruised im afraid that i been through so much when its time for me to love my heart cant be used. other girls ignored my pain some laughed i guess they were amused . im the victim and im still the one that get accused. i learned my lesson , my maturity grew i changed my ways and paid my due's. dont judge me . i use to be a player but i changed those shoes and maybe you can see what im going through. your heart has a lock . that wall is hard as concret your love is blocked. |
THE BLUESSTUCK IN A NEVER ENDING CRISIS TELL ME IS THIS THE WAY LIFE IS ? ITS ALL ABOUT CHANCE THE LUCK OF THE DICES . MY LOVE IS FREE BUT EVERYONE ESLE HAS PRICES . IM A VICTIM OF UNHEARD CRIES . ALWAYS BEEN IN 2ND PLACE NEVER GOT THE FIRST PRIZE . MY SOUL IS A COMBO, I GOT THE BURGER BUT IM MISSING THE FRIES . IM CUT IN HALF , AND SHE THE OTHER SIDE . I DONT EVEN FEEL ALIVE . ZOMBIE WALKING THE PAIN MAKES ME WANNA STAY HIGH . IM SICK OF EARTH . I WONDER WHATS BEYOND THE SKIES . IF YOU ASKED ME ABOUT HAPPINESS I WOULDNT KNOW HOW TO DESCRIBE . IMA JUST QUIT TALKING AND BECOME A MIME , I RATHER SHOW HOW I FEEL BECAUSE WORDS IS A WASTE OF TIME. THEY SAY IM FINE BUT TELL ME WHY I CANT FIND ONE PERSON THAT I CAN CONFIDE INTO MAYBE ITS YOU . NAW ITS SEEMS PEOPLE LOVE LIES AND NOT ATTRACTED TO TRUTH . SO TELL ME WHATS THE USE ????? MAN I GOT THE BLUES |
Internalwhats my purpose ? I'm feeling worthless . During service I'm nervous . They injured my pride in churches . Nothings working . I'm hurtin . cant find one person . Patience is a virtue . true . But I'm not searchin . Come and laugh at the freak . Enjoy the circus . I'm spiritually weak . Its hard believing when you cant see . But i have more faith than a mustard seed . I'll bleed for you , Since you bled for me . And I'm bleeding right now Internally . The world controlled by a cricket fraternity . The pain of life burning me . Its turning me into a beast . One day feels like forever . More like Enternity .
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IN DEPTHFeeling like my life is a Set up . When i wake up . I dont even wanna get up . I awake to the same Game . Even though life is not a game . I'm losing everyday . Should i waste my tears on something i cant control ? Or should i just weep and release the pain in my soul . Wanting to have a love to save me from this cold . I've been broken before but i never been this low . It's scarey . Like everyday is on repeat . You can do things to change the outcome , But it seems my definition of peace is not destined for me . living with doubted hope . I'm not a man . So they treat my love as a joke . My heart is capable of the same things . The only thing missing is the meat in between . i have none . But i can make you cum like i had one . Naw . I can make you cum like you dont need one . Make you throb . Make you hot , Hotter than the sun . Sex aside . lets talk about my mind , My mentality is not of this world . You'll never find , Another mind like mines . |
Wanting what i Cant haveThe only one i wanted is off limits she caught my eye by the realness of not creepin on her guy. I feel sick just the thought of this dime being taken because i know for sure her love is being forsaken. The human mind cant use both sides of the brain but the part i wasnt using has just been awakened to the fact that i been thinking heavy . When i see her all i picture is a Big Stamp Titled NEVER. but i refuse to believe that this woman will never be with me. Our chemistry is stronger than its meant to be. Thoughts And visions in my mind are packed, Everytime i pass her she gives me a direct eye contact. Tell me whats that? If your satisfied fully there is no reason to turn your head when you see me. She feeling me secretly but all i can do is wait to go to sleep and i see her in my dreams. |
RealityWhatever happened to warnings . Whatever happened to the sun shinning on my face in the morning . Now i wake up and outside its storming . Nobody told me about life . about strife . this thing called " pain " in my heart that stabs like a knife . I wasnt ready . I was dissed for thinking too ahead from this girl named Lisette . thats petty . Her words cut up all my insides like a machete . Ever since that day I been in a Nightmare on Elm Street . Being tortured in my dreams getting chased by freddy . The light dont want me . I tried to touch It and It wont let me . I hate this truth . It's deadly . I cant face to stomach reality |