Pain vs Peace

DEAR LOVE

I wont run away when you try to get close. scared of the fact that if i had too much of you that i might over dose. The feeling of love takes over my mind ,body , and soul. and i dont want nobody to have that much control. I felt weak when my last lover left. My whole heart went cold. My pride was taken my dignity was stolen . Because i didnt know how to let you go. Falling for the very first time. I Never really thought i could find such a beautiful dime. The way she had me addicted should be a damn crime! I didnt speak for a couple of weeks speechless like a mime. Feeling a sharp pain in the pit of my chess couldnt sleep most nights hardly got any rest. Wishing i could just press RESET but you cant live life with a bunch of regrets. So Love im back ima turn in my playa card . Ima let you in love and let down my guard . Its time for Romance ima be brave it takes courage to give love a second Chance.

WHAT LOVE DID TO ME.. TRUE STORY

I was so captured by your beauty i didnt recongnize how u was treatin me. Blinded by what was and how you use to be. You were pretending , That Girl was never who i pictured myself with. U wasnt bein yourself, You was acting so that person i liked dont exsist , I fell in love with a Myth. And i was Deeply in shock when i found out this was fake. I could deal with Alot of things in life, But this my heart and mind couldnt take. Pain built up anger inside of me. I didnt know how to define me. I was gone hiding nobody couldnt find me. My Eyes stayed red, Cried so much they bled i had ran out of tears to shed. I hated the fact that she let me give her my all! And i had nothing left plain Empty inside. I swear when she hurt me Clarissa Died and Pretty Azz Was born a playa created because i was Extremely Torn. U formed a machine in me now I cant give my all. Im blocked forever unless true love come and Break down this Brick Wall.

IRRITATING EMOTION

I CANT STAND YOU , BUT I STILL WANT IN . BECAUSE I GOT THIS EMOTION THATS GETTING UNDER MY SKIN. BATTLING WITH THIS FEELING SEEMS EVERLASTING CAUSE I HATE YOU FOR INJURING MY PRIDE . I AM THE TRUTH BUT YOU SPIT ON MY NAME AND MADE ME OUT AS A LIE . HEARING YOUR NAME MAKES ME MORE ANGRY THATS ONLY CAUSE I REALLY WANNA CRY. BUT THE SOLDIER IN ME WONT LET THOSE TEARS DROP, I USE TO HAVE WATERY EYES.. I SUCKED IT UP AND NOW MY CHEEKS CAN STAY DRY . AS I ANALYZE WHY YOU CRITIZED ME BRUTALLY I UNDERSTAND THAT THE WORLD ***ED YOU UP SO BAD THAT YOU DIDNT RECONGNIZE POTENTIAL LOVE .  BLOCKING YOUR HEART REFUSING TO BELIEVE.. THOSE NEGATIVE MOUTHS HAD U DECEIVE SOMETHING THAT COULD OF BEEN  YOU/AND/ ME .THE ROUTES OF OUR DESTINY CHANGED , IN THE FUTURE I SAW US BUT THE CURRENT IS RATHER LONELY . I KNOW U FEEL THE HEAT MATTER FACT NEVER MIND SINCE YOU SO COLD YOU FEEL THAT HEART FREEZE.. EVERTHING SO FROZEN INSIDE OF YOU, FOG COMES OUT OF YOUR MOUTH WHEN YOU BREATHE . ITS HARD TO...

Connect Two

A piece of my spirit lives in you ..

I guess when God created me he split my soul in two ..

Thats why i never feel complete .

Food makes me strong physically but your soul feeds me spiritually . Without it im weak ..

I was missing something that's not visible .. For human Eye's cant see .

This body is temporary its not mines to keep .

In the after life i will search for your spirit in Heaven's City ..

Really . .

Connect these Two . . And the earth shifts . the oceans move .

The Wolfs howl on this day without a full moon .

Connect two . . . Im meant for you
 

Pain vs Peace

I would walk on glass with no shoes .

Because that pain cant be worst than the thought of losing you.

Maybe the outer pain will cover the inner pain. when its all sore and bruised .

You not perfect but your imperfectly perfect for me .

Flaws included .

After we're done talking , I rethink what i said to see if i said something stupid .

then its your face i see everytime i listen to music .

you stuck in me . And I cant get away

but i like it . i dont want you to go .

please stay .

Follow me if you got pain..

I know a place that has peace . Hold my hand . its inside of me ....