They told me I was going to be just like her, that I was walking in her shadows
Mind racing on a daily basis around the clock like military time in dark places, filled with pain and things from the past, they don't know me, or what I've been through so while they assume I'm in the shadows of what should be, I fight to protect me from the things they said I would be but not knowing I'm still me, and not someone I pretend to be! My knees hit the ground as I rest my head down... Asking why? Why all the rumors and lies from those who see no wrongdoing in themselves and unwilling to compromise?! The things they made me out to be cut like a old scar with a fresh wound.... repeatedly inserting the tip from the knife that was use to stab me in the back reverse and do it again. The same wound that endured previous wounds, healed and erupted over and over again from all the sins they put my name in and the stains that were left on my name! It's a shame when they claim to be holier than thou but thus not abide by thee.... Speaking evil and spreading lies about me?! But yet and still, I kneel in front of thee and ask why?! Why me?! But I accept thee!! Because if it weren't for all the lies that had been labeled upon me! I may not have asked to be forgiven for the things they don't know about me! I trust in thee! But most of all I believe in me!!...😘 #StillStanding
A'Briana Nichelle
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