In my dreams

A story on reincarnation

Do you see me not this body that im in but the me within the one that you fell in love with do you see me i am not a personality but a spirit the one you've been searching for is it so hard to beleive that you found it do you see me because looking at you brings back vague memories on how we used to be why dont you see me let me break it down so you can see me hello i am you wife Mary do you see me I dont remember much but i did promise to never leave now answer this: Why dont you see me?

In my dreams

Last night i had a dream that you were near me even though it wasnt real i could still feel you breath for a moment i was in heaven and in that moment i hoped and prayed that i would never wake up again your arms still felt like home and i didnt feel so alone it was just us working on love working on trust working to improve this real love that once started off as real lust all of the sudden you dissapear in thin air reality sets in and i jump up to reach only to find that you are not there my hands find the empty space that once was you place next to me its funny how we argued so much but now i would give anyrhing just to hear you breath 

answers in a bottle

Another lonely night another meaningless fight another missed point of why we shouldve worked out so instead of sitting here to pout im gonna go out drinking so many bottles liquer mixing the dark with clear and i drank something blue too the rim was covered in sugar and i hoped it would make me forget you but it didnt leaving the club in a daze but me finding the door is like a blind rat trying to find its way out of a maze how did i get here how did i get home why am i naked and not alone i guess you end up with more questions when you look for answers in a bottle

women's intuition

It's funny how women's intuition can feel like a bunch of b*tchin that we need to get up out our system in reality it's a vision a personal feelin when left unvocalized it's a killing it a shame that the relationship murders name is women's intuition

My Rape Story

I laid on the bed as if I was ready,

he skipped foreplay and eased it in real steady,

before i could take all of his inches I had to ask myself two questions,

Should I be doing this...I shouldnt,

Will it ease my pain....it wouldnt,

When i tried to push him off of me...I couldnt,

When i got up he started to choke me,

he squeezed so tight I stopped breathing,

I stopped breathing for so long i started shaking,

I shook so much i felt as if i was seizing,

Finally giving up the fight against the man i asked God to forgive me,

I prayed that he would protect my family,

I begged him to guide my sisters so they dont meet the same destiny,

As i finished my prayer the guy said thanks for the sex and i loved the chase,

So when i tell my story do not look at me any differently,

I am still human...i am still me,

Dont think ...

Just a kid

Our Situation

These kids don't understand the complexity of our current situation so if don't mind I would like to supply them with a simple explanation the goverment supplies the crack and baby you buyin if you sayin your not than honey you lyin your homeboy got the new J's so you decided to steal em except somewhere in the process you messed around and killed em you are now a drug addict a fellow brotha fallen victim to the system wishin you would've got a job because nothing in life come free and now you're payin with your freedom being put away and locked in a cage we kill over material in all honesty its not worth it now that you understand the complexity of our situation lets stop slaying each other and get this education

Love Hurts

There are wounds on my heart that you can never repair no matter how strong I act its still not fair knowing you can break me by the choice of your words you obtain the sweetest voice yet say the meanest things I ever heard the damage is done and the wounds are there you can squeeze my heart dry yet you don't even care living one day without you is a constant strain I have a list long enough to last eternity and complain so why do I sit here why do I stay because I love so much I rather lay in his arms and deal with the pain

My Generation

My generation is so confused

these challenged we do now is what our ancestors called abuse

back then they didn't have a choice

if its a point your trying to make just use your voice

since you have to prove yourself to valid

how about getting an education cause thats the only thing that will be counted

my generation needs to take heed

all these stupid challenges we do to kill or hurt one another is the last thing we need

A Childs Cry

I understand you gettin out soon and i know for a fact there will be some nights im cryin in my room but before you ask why am i trippin think back to the nights you shouldve been home but you were out there slippin yeah of course I remember the burgers and friens but lets compare that to all those irrelevant lies all my school functions when you were invited had me excited thinking that my daddys was gonna be here and he was gonna like it but I guess i was the fool because you always had somewhere to be or something to do but now your getting out and you want that father daughter relationship to be honest dont hold your breath if you hold it to long we might have to put you to rest hopefully one day this relationship can be dicovered but as a man you have to accept that my broken heart that you caused is still on life support and needs time to recover